Tan liquid spilled over the cupâs rim and settled into the saucer. He stirred at it as if beating it back and then laid the spoon on the table. A trickle of coffee trailed from the spoonâs underside.
He lifted the cup to his lips, one hand positioned underneath to catch drips that would have landed in his lap. Before setting the cup back in the saucer he pulled three paper napkins from the serving tray. He lay them in the saucer, then placed the cup on top. He cleaned the spilled coffee from both cup and saucer. He lifted the cup and removed the napkins. He wiped the spoon and stray drops. He placed the cup in its saucer and the spoon to the side on a napkin, then threw the ball of used napkins in a wastebasket in the corner. He leaned back in his chair, and I examined the perfect still life heâd created out of his cup of coffee. The mess made just moments before gone, Michael returned his gaze to me. Heâd obliterated disorder. This is what Michael does, I thought. He takes the mess away and makes things neat and organized.
âAs I was saying,â he continued, âyouâve never donemore with your talent than a quick display here and there. Few people have seen it, but when they do they are impressed. Despite this, you donât seem able to get anywhere. You feel like youâre skimming along the surface. You donât know if you know whatâs happening. You donât know if you can trust people because youâve been let down.â
I was sure it hadnât been so warm when Iâd come in. âCould I have some water?â
Michael nodded at the glass heâd already poured for me. âI know how hard it is to hear your own story from a stranger. How do I know all this? Because itâs every artistâs story.â
âArtist?â
âSure. Why not? You have a canvas; it just happens to be your skin. I can see the marks of your work on your hands and neck.â Michael pointed at the window. âSee the crowds out there? They donât know they need you yet, because we havenât made them need you. Weâll carve them up into two camps, those who hate you and those who love you. When they argue about you, youâll be more than just a guy with pins in his skin. Youâll be your own work of art.â
I said, âIâll be a commodity.â
Michael followed my eyes. âExactly.â He drank the rest of his coffee.
As I sipped my ice water I spotted something floating along the bottom. Something black and hard and crusty.âYou havenât even asked me where Iâm from. About my past or who I was working with in the video.â
âThatâs because nobody cares. Itâs not important.â
âItâs not?â
âOf course not.â He went to a cabinet in the wall and opened it, revealing shelves filled with cameras, carefully laid out files and pictures, and a column of drawers running up to the ceiling, each neatly labeled. He removed a packet of film from one and loaded a Polaroid camera. âYou want to tell your story. Iâll help you tell it. Show me your biggest scar.â
For an instant I thought about leaving. Then I felt myself scratching at my right leg through the stitched-up pants. Maybe there is something about wounds that makes them want to be seen; the ones Caesar gave me itched.
Michael mistook my delay for embarrassment. âTrust me.â He locked the door. âNo one sees this picture if you donât want them to, but when I take it youâll see what is important about your story and what isnât. Youâll see who you can be.â
I unbuckled my belt and lowered my pants. I showed him the scar that ran along my thigh.
âOh, God. Thatâs big,â he said. âHold still.â He took a picture. I expected him to take more, to use up all the film from different angles and then create a file filled with my scars. Instead he took just
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