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him, “I’m not even sure what love is, anymore. I care for you and it might be love, but I thought I was in love before and looking back on it… I’m not sure it was.”
“When you figure it out, let me know. Until then, know that I love you and I’ll do what I can to make whatever this is between us work. Some things aren’t negotiable and I’m not sure how we’ll work around them, but I hope to god we can figure it out.”
I pulled away from him and gave him a shy smile. “Me too, but right now I think I need to go talk to Pixie.”
He nodded, and I made my way to Pixie and Duke, who were now standing just inside the forest. Pixie’s back was to me, and Duke gave me a concerned look as I neared. He had both of his arms around her, holding her, and I could see his wolf near the surface, protecting her. My deer wanted to run but I forced my human body to stand still.
“I’m sorry if I scared you, Pixie.” I took a few more steps and stopped ten feet away. “Is it okay if I come a little closer, so we can talk?”
She turned in Duke’s arms and I could see she’d been crying, but she nodded and gave me a weak smile. “Yes. I’m sorry I freaked. I like you, but I guess I thought it was safe to let you touch me because you’re with Nix, so when you made it more , my reflexes kicked in.”
I glanced at Duke. His wolf was still close to the surface and I pushed my deer down farther. I took two steps and stopped again. “Duke, I’m not going to hurt her and your wolf is freaking out my deer.”
He closed his eyes a few seconds, and when he opened them the wolf wasn’t near the surface anymore. I breathed easier and took a few steps closer.
“I am with Nix, but he knows I can’t promise him monogamy. We haven’t figured out how to work through that yet, because wolves pretty much demand exclusivity in their mates, but he thinks we might be able to work it out if I’m with girls and not guys. I’m bisexual, so… it might work. I haven’t been around anyone I’m interested in, but you called to my soul. I like you.”
No one said anything for several long moments, and I finally said, “I won’t try to kiss you again. At least not without talking to you about it first, okay? Can we hang out together some more? Maybe hold hands and hug and cuddle like we were?”
“It was okay before because I didn’t understand it was sexual.”
Duke snugged his arms around her and kissed the top of her head. “Maybe if you think of it as affectionate instead of sexual until you’re used to her and trust her? You and I have talked about how long it might take before you can heal from what was done to you. I’ll stay close, and you know I won’t let anyone hurt you, Pix.”
“I’m sorry I made you sad,” I told her. “I loved watching you dance, seeing how much you love life. I still like you, though. This is part of you, and I’ll deal with the happy parts as well as the sad parts.”
I must’ve said something right, because I noted a subtle change in her eyes as her scent shifted to one of hope. She gently stepped out of Duke’s arms and held her hand out to me. I took it, and we walked downstream to the cascades.
14
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B y the time we headed to bed at three in the morning, I had no idea what the rest of the night was going to bring.
I’d stood with Duke as we watched Tippy and Pixie dance and play together, and he’d asked how I felt about my woman giving her attention and affection to someone else.
“She never promised herself to only me. If I’m honest I’ll say I don’t like it, but I also know I’ll lose her if I can’t be okay with her being with others sometimes. I don’t think she’ll ever be with someone else more than she’s with me, because she… well, it’s a long story but I just don’t think it’ll be a problem.” I watched them laugh together as they went to the bar for more drinks. “I think my wolf might be able to handle her being with others as long
“When you figure it out, let me know. Until then, know that I love you and I’ll do what I can to make whatever this is between us work. Some things aren’t negotiable and I’m not sure how we’ll work around them, but I hope to god we can figure it out.”
I pulled away from him and gave him a shy smile. “Me too, but right now I think I need to go talk to Pixie.”
He nodded, and I made my way to Pixie and Duke, who were now standing just inside the forest. Pixie’s back was to me, and Duke gave me a concerned look as I neared. He had both of his arms around her, holding her, and I could see his wolf near the surface, protecting her. My deer wanted to run but I forced my human body to stand still.
“I’m sorry if I scared you, Pixie.” I took a few more steps and stopped ten feet away. “Is it okay if I come a little closer, so we can talk?”
She turned in Duke’s arms and I could see she’d been crying, but she nodded and gave me a weak smile. “Yes. I’m sorry I freaked. I like you, but I guess I thought it was safe to let you touch me because you’re with Nix, so when you made it more , my reflexes kicked in.”
I glanced at Duke. His wolf was still close to the surface and I pushed my deer down farther. I took two steps and stopped again. “Duke, I’m not going to hurt her and your wolf is freaking out my deer.”
He closed his eyes a few seconds, and when he opened them the wolf wasn’t near the surface anymore. I breathed easier and took a few steps closer.
“I am with Nix, but he knows I can’t promise him monogamy. We haven’t figured out how to work through that yet, because wolves pretty much demand exclusivity in their mates, but he thinks we might be able to work it out if I’m with girls and not guys. I’m bisexual, so… it might work. I haven’t been around anyone I’m interested in, but you called to my soul. I like you.”
No one said anything for several long moments, and I finally said, “I won’t try to kiss you again. At least not without talking to you about it first, okay? Can we hang out together some more? Maybe hold hands and hug and cuddle like we were?”
“It was okay before because I didn’t understand it was sexual.”
Duke snugged his arms around her and kissed the top of her head. “Maybe if you think of it as affectionate instead of sexual until you’re used to her and trust her? You and I have talked about how long it might take before you can heal from what was done to you. I’ll stay close, and you know I won’t let anyone hurt you, Pix.”
“I’m sorry I made you sad,” I told her. “I loved watching you dance, seeing how much you love life. I still like you, though. This is part of you, and I’ll deal with the happy parts as well as the sad parts.”
I must’ve said something right, because I noted a subtle change in her eyes as her scent shifted to one of hope. She gently stepped out of Duke’s arms and held her hand out to me. I took it, and we walked downstream to the cascades.
14
N ix
B y the time we headed to bed at three in the morning, I had no idea what the rest of the night was going to bring.
I’d stood with Duke as we watched Tippy and Pixie dance and play together, and he’d asked how I felt about my woman giving her attention and affection to someone else.
“She never promised herself to only me. If I’m honest I’ll say I don’t like it, but I also know I’ll lose her if I can’t be okay with her being with others sometimes. I don’t think she’ll ever be with someone else more than she’s with me, because she… well, it’s a long story but I just don’t think it’ll be a problem.” I watched them laugh together as they went to the bar for more drinks. “I think my wolf might be able to handle her being with others as long
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