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morally a failure. And Dr. Ramsay, his thick neck getting red, telling him in no uncertain terms that morals were not subject to the grading system at Fort College.
There was more but he'd forgotten it. He'd made an effort to forget it. But he couldn't forget that it would be years before he made a professorship. Ramsay would hold it back. And his salary would go on being insufficient and bills would mount and he would never get his writing done.
He regained the present to find himself clutching the sheets with taut fingers. He found himself glaring in hate at the bathroom door. Go on!-his mind snapped vindictively-Go home to your precious mother. See if I care. Why just a trial separation? Make it permanent. Give me some peace. Maybe I can do some writing then.
Maybe I can do some writing then.
The phrase made him sick. It had no meaning anymore. Like a word that is repeated until it becomes gibberish that sentence, for him, had been used to extinction. It sounded silly; like some bit of cliche from a soap opera. Hero saying in dramatic tones- Now, by God, maybe I can do some writing. Senseless.
For a moment, though, he wondered if it was true. Now that she was leaving could he forget about her and really get some work done? Quit his job? Go somewhere and hole up in a cheap furnished room and write?
You have $123.89 in the bank, his mind informed him. He pretended it was the only thing that kept him from it. But, far back in his mind, he wondered if he could write anywhere. Often the question threw itself at him when he was least expecting it. You have four hours every morning, the statement would rise like a menacing wraith. You have time to write many thousands of words. Why don't you?
And the answer was always lost in a tangle of because and wells and endless reasons that he clung to like a drowning man at straws.
The bathroom door opened and she came out, dressed in her good red suit.
For no reason at all, it seemed, he suddenly realized that she'd been wearing that same outfit for more than three years and never a new one. The realization angered him even more. He closed his eyes and hoped she wasn't looking at him. I hate her, he thought. I hate her because she has destroyed my life.
He heard the rustle of her skirt as she sat at the dressing table and pulled out a drawer. He kept his eyes shut and listened to the Venetian blinds tap lightly against the window frame as morning breeze touched them. He could smell her perfume floating lightly on the air.
And he tried to think of the house empty all the time. He tried to think of coming home from class and not finding Sally there waiting for him. The idea seemed, somehow, impossible. And that angered him. Yes, he thought, she's gotten to me. She's worked on me until I am so dependent of her for really unessential things that I suffer under the delusion that I cannot do without her.
He turned suddenly on the mattress and looked at her.
"So, you're really going," he said in a cold voice.
She turned briefly and looked at him. There was no anger on her face. She looked tired… "Yes," she said. "I'm going."
Good riddance. The words tried to pass his lips. He cut them off.
"I suppose you have your reasons," he said.
Her shoulders twitched a moment in what he took for a shrug of weary amusement.
"I have no intention of arguing with you," he said. "Your life is your own."
"Thank you," she murmured.
She's waiting for apologies, he thought. Waiting to be told that he didn't hate her as he'd said. That he hadn't struck her but all his twisted and shattered hopes; the mocking spectacle of his own lost faith.
"And just how long is this trial separation going to last?" he said, his voice acidulous.
She shook her head.
"I don't know, Chris," she said quietly. "It's up to you."
"Up to me," he said. "It's always up to me, isn't it?"
"Oh, please darl- Chris. I don't
There was more but he'd forgotten it. He'd made an effort to forget it. But he couldn't forget that it would be years before he made a professorship. Ramsay would hold it back. And his salary would go on being insufficient and bills would mount and he would never get his writing done.
He regained the present to find himself clutching the sheets with taut fingers. He found himself glaring in hate at the bathroom door. Go on!-his mind snapped vindictively-Go home to your precious mother. See if I care. Why just a trial separation? Make it permanent. Give me some peace. Maybe I can do some writing then.
Maybe I can do some writing then.
The phrase made him sick. It had no meaning anymore. Like a word that is repeated until it becomes gibberish that sentence, for him, had been used to extinction. It sounded silly; like some bit of cliche from a soap opera. Hero saying in dramatic tones- Now, by God, maybe I can do some writing. Senseless.
For a moment, though, he wondered if it was true. Now that she was leaving could he forget about her and really get some work done? Quit his job? Go somewhere and hole up in a cheap furnished room and write?
You have $123.89 in the bank, his mind informed him. He pretended it was the only thing that kept him from it. But, far back in his mind, he wondered if he could write anywhere. Often the question threw itself at him when he was least expecting it. You have four hours every morning, the statement would rise like a menacing wraith. You have time to write many thousands of words. Why don't you?
And the answer was always lost in a tangle of because and wells and endless reasons that he clung to like a drowning man at straws.
The bathroom door opened and she came out, dressed in her good red suit.
For no reason at all, it seemed, he suddenly realized that she'd been wearing that same outfit for more than three years and never a new one. The realization angered him even more. He closed his eyes and hoped she wasn't looking at him. I hate her, he thought. I hate her because she has destroyed my life.
He heard the rustle of her skirt as she sat at the dressing table and pulled out a drawer. He kept his eyes shut and listened to the Venetian blinds tap lightly against the window frame as morning breeze touched them. He could smell her perfume floating lightly on the air.
And he tried to think of the house empty all the time. He tried to think of coming home from class and not finding Sally there waiting for him. The idea seemed, somehow, impossible. And that angered him. Yes, he thought, she's gotten to me. She's worked on me until I am so dependent of her for really unessential things that I suffer under the delusion that I cannot do without her.
He turned suddenly on the mattress and looked at her.
"So, you're really going," he said in a cold voice.
She turned briefly and looked at him. There was no anger on her face. She looked tired… "Yes," she said. "I'm going."
Good riddance. The words tried to pass his lips. He cut them off.
"I suppose you have your reasons," he said.
Her shoulders twitched a moment in what he took for a shrug of weary amusement.
"I have no intention of arguing with you," he said. "Your life is your own."
"Thank you," she murmured.
She's waiting for apologies, he thought. Waiting to be told that he didn't hate her as he'd said. That he hadn't struck her but all his twisted and shattered hopes; the mocking spectacle of his own lost faith.
"And just how long is this trial separation going to last?" he said, his voice acidulous.
She shook her head.
"I don't know, Chris," she said quietly. "It's up to you."
"Up to me," he said. "It's always up to me, isn't it?"
"Oh, please darl- Chris. I don't
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