am. You are fine, and thereâs nothing wrong with looking like a lady for a change. Come on. Get with the program here. The whole point is, if you look different, youâll feel different.â
âAnd what about you?â
âIâd love to feel different. Iâd love to not feel like a failure.â
âYou didnât fail. You had circumstances. And at least you took some control. What can I do?â
âChange your style. For three hours. For one night. What could it hurt? Weâll show some leg, some bosom, and pay close attention to whoever comes into our orbit, and Eddie will sit up and take notice. Trust me.â
âWho are you going to play sexy lady with?â
âMy mirror,â Carrie said, holding a skirt up against Jeannieâs body. âRemember, Iâm doing this for you.â But in truth, she wasnât sure that she wasnât doing it for herself as well.
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THE GRANGE HALL was right in the middle of town behind the Main Street antique shops and village stores. Music was already blasting into the starry night when Carrie turned into the crowded parking lot.
âIâm not sure this is such a good idea,â Jeannie said tentatively.
âLetâs just go inside and see what Eddie says.â
âHe wonât notice.â
âHeâll notice,â Carrie said firmly, turning off the ignition. âItâs just you havenât worn a skirt in so long, you donât know what to do with your legs.â
âYeah. Maybe.â
âLook, the real key is the pay-attention part, and getting what you expect. So youâd better aim high, Jeannie, because I expect Eddie to hustle you out of there inside an hour.â
âA nice fantasy, Carrie.â
âWell, visualize. The mind is very powerful. And youâve been underutilizing your power. Come on.â Carrie swung out of the car and purposefully went around to Jeannieâs side and opened her door. âLetâs go, letâs go, letâs go...â
âIt sounded better when you were reading about it,â Jeannie muttered. âOkay, Iâm coming.â She felt naked even though she was smartly and thoroughly clothed. It was just that Carrieâs wardrobe didnât run to T-shirts, denims, and sneakers.
Carrie had found a stretchy bodysuit with a surplice
neckline that fit her, and theyâd paired that with a long gauzy button-down skirt that revealed a lot of leg, and a pair of sandals. Jeannie had to admit wearing more sophisticated clothes did make her feel different; and they werenât too outrageous, she consoled herself as she and Carrie climbed the steps to the hall. Of course, everyone probably expected that kind of thing from Carrie, whoâd always had a reputation for dressing conspicuously. But her?
Okay. She had to change that kind of thinking. Carrie had drilled it into her. The attitude tonight was not I canât. She was supposed to be visualizing I can and I will. I can and I will walk into the crowd and expect that people are going to react positively to me.
âHey Jeannie. Wow, you look nice.â
âJeeeaannnieeeâhow you doinâ?â
âJeannieâcome on over...â
She turned and caught Carrieâs eye. Carrie grinned and waved her on.
In the center of the hall, the musicians were taking a break and the crowd was milling around waiting for the start of the next set.
âJeannie...let me look at youââ
Carrie heard the affection in their voices as everyone called out to Jeannie, beloved, kind, gentle Jeannie who had been part of the community her whole life.
Who couldnât love Jeannie?
What the hell was wrong with Eddie?
Jeannie grabbed her arm. âHeâs over there,â she whispered. âNear the bandstand. Surrounded as usual.â
Carrie stared at him. Fifteen years had put weight on Eddie Gerardo, and diminished some of his hair. But otherwise,
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