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the means to support a child on my own. I would love him or her and everything would be fine. Plenty of children only had one parent and turned out just fine.
Then I realized that there would eventually be no way for me to hide this from him. Once I started to show and he found out my due date, he would be able to do the math and figure out that this was his child. The last thing I wanted was for him to know.
Right then and there, I started to make plans to leave Alaska and begin my new life as a single mother. In my mind it was the only way.
Chapter 11
I barely made it through the rest of the work week. I could only eat crackers and drink little shots of water. The nausea came and went, and I couldn’t stop thinking about Eric’s baby growing inside me. I started to pay closer attention to the babies and pregnant women that came into the office. I watched them with their husbands, feeling an overwhelming jealousy and sadness at what they had that I would never have. I kept up a brave front at work, but at home, I cried myself to sleep every night. I never imagined I’d be alone during this time in my life.
During one particularly stressful day about three weeks after my big realization, I had to run out of an exam room and into the bathroom. I splashed some water on my face and took out my secret stash of mouthwash before returning to finish the appointment, apologizing profusely.
I thought I was in the clear until Jenna came into my office a few minutes later.
"How long have you known?"
"Known what?"
"Stop playing dumb with me. I've watched you losing your meals, scarfing down crackers, and looking exhausted. I even found you in here napping. I've worked here long enough to know the signs. You're pregnant."
And I thought I hid it so well. I should have known better. Unable to control my emotions any longer, I started to sob. Jenna closed the door and sat down next to me. It was embarrassing, but it felt good to let it all out.
"I found out about three weeks ago. I figure I'm about 11 weeks now."
"Oh my god, Malia! How have you been keeping this to yourself? You know you could have told me right away!"
"I was trying to keep it a secret. I didn't want you or anyone else feeling bad for me."
"Well, you can't hide it forever. You will be showing soon. How does Eric feel about it?"
"He doesn't know. And I'm not going to tell him. He's moved on, and I won't have him coming back just because he feels an obligation to me."
"I think you need to let him make that decision, don't you? I've stayed out of it and kept my mouth shut for the past month, but I think you have things all wrong. I really think you should talk to Eric."
"No, I don't want to break up his happy home. He has enough stress at the ranch, and I can do this on my own."
"But you don't have to. He cares about you a whole lot more than you think. Give him a chance."
"It's too late for that. I need to leave. I've already found a new position at a practice near my parents in Florida. I'm leaving next week. My replacement will be here in two weeks."
Jenna had begged and pleaded with me to reconsider my decision, but I was not going to change my mind. The only solution I could think of was to get far away from Alaska and everything that reminded me of Eric. I didn't need to raise a child in the shadow of what could have been.
On the day before I was supposed to leave, Jenna tearfully threw me a little going away party at Mick's. She promised not to tell anyone my secret as long as I let her have the party. I wore a big sweater and leggings to hide my growing belly.
Most of the town seemed to be there, and many of them tried like crazy to convince me that Alaska was the only place for me. I just smiled and lied right to their faces, telling them that my family needed me in Florida. I was smothered with hugs and promised them I would keep in touch.
I was getting through the night with minimal tears until I looked up and all the air seemed
Then I realized that there would eventually be no way for me to hide this from him. Once I started to show and he found out my due date, he would be able to do the math and figure out that this was his child. The last thing I wanted was for him to know.
Right then and there, I started to make plans to leave Alaska and begin my new life as a single mother. In my mind it was the only way.
Chapter 11
I barely made it through the rest of the work week. I could only eat crackers and drink little shots of water. The nausea came and went, and I couldn’t stop thinking about Eric’s baby growing inside me. I started to pay closer attention to the babies and pregnant women that came into the office. I watched them with their husbands, feeling an overwhelming jealousy and sadness at what they had that I would never have. I kept up a brave front at work, but at home, I cried myself to sleep every night. I never imagined I’d be alone during this time in my life.
During one particularly stressful day about three weeks after my big realization, I had to run out of an exam room and into the bathroom. I splashed some water on my face and took out my secret stash of mouthwash before returning to finish the appointment, apologizing profusely.
I thought I was in the clear until Jenna came into my office a few minutes later.
"How long have you known?"
"Known what?"
"Stop playing dumb with me. I've watched you losing your meals, scarfing down crackers, and looking exhausted. I even found you in here napping. I've worked here long enough to know the signs. You're pregnant."
And I thought I hid it so well. I should have known better. Unable to control my emotions any longer, I started to sob. Jenna closed the door and sat down next to me. It was embarrassing, but it felt good to let it all out.
"I found out about three weeks ago. I figure I'm about 11 weeks now."
"Oh my god, Malia! How have you been keeping this to yourself? You know you could have told me right away!"
"I was trying to keep it a secret. I didn't want you or anyone else feeling bad for me."
"Well, you can't hide it forever. You will be showing soon. How does Eric feel about it?"
"He doesn't know. And I'm not going to tell him. He's moved on, and I won't have him coming back just because he feels an obligation to me."
"I think you need to let him make that decision, don't you? I've stayed out of it and kept my mouth shut for the past month, but I think you have things all wrong. I really think you should talk to Eric."
"No, I don't want to break up his happy home. He has enough stress at the ranch, and I can do this on my own."
"But you don't have to. He cares about you a whole lot more than you think. Give him a chance."
"It's too late for that. I need to leave. I've already found a new position at a practice near my parents in Florida. I'm leaving next week. My replacement will be here in two weeks."
Jenna had begged and pleaded with me to reconsider my decision, but I was not going to change my mind. The only solution I could think of was to get far away from Alaska and everything that reminded me of Eric. I didn't need to raise a child in the shadow of what could have been.
On the day before I was supposed to leave, Jenna tearfully threw me a little going away party at Mick's. She promised not to tell anyone my secret as long as I let her have the party. I wore a big sweater and leggings to hide my growing belly.
Most of the town seemed to be there, and many of them tried like crazy to convince me that Alaska was the only place for me. I just smiled and lied right to their faces, telling them that my family needed me in Florida. I was smothered with hugs and promised them I would keep in touch.
I was getting through the night with minimal tears until I looked up and all the air seemed
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