Sheâd felt, and sheâd wanted. Felt and wanted more than she ever had before. Yet she had still failed. For that one timeless moment sheâd been willing to toss aside pride and fear. There had been passion in her, real and ready. And, sheâd thought, heâd felt passion for her.
But not enough. She closed her eyes. It never seemed to be enough. Now she was cold, freezing, and wrapped her arms tight to try to hold in some remnant of heat.
Damn it, why didnât she say something? Mikhail dragged an unsteady hand through his hair. He deserved to be slapped. Shot was more like it. And she just sat there.
As he brooded out the window, he reminded himself that it hadnât been all his doing. Sheâd been as rash, pressing that wonderful body against his, letting that wide, mobile mouth make him crazy. Squirting that damnable perfume all over that soft skin until heâd been drunk with it.
He started to feel better.
Yes, there had been two people grappling in the back seat. She was every bit as guilty as he.
âLook, Sydney.â He turned and she jerked back like an over-wound spring.
âDonât touch me.â He heard only the venom and none of the tears.
âFine.â Guilt hammered away at him as the car cruised to the curb. âIâll keep my big, grimy hands off you, Hayward. Call someone else when you want a little romp in the back seat.â
Her fisted hands held on to pride and composure. âI meant what I said about my mother.â
He shoved the door open. Light spilled in, splashing over his face, turning it frosty white. âSo did I. Thanks for the ride.â
When the door slammed, she closed her eyes tight. She would not cry. A single tear slipped past her guard and was dashed away. She would not cry. And she would not forget.
C HAPTER F OUR
S heâd put in a long day. Actually sheâd put in a long week that was edging toward sixty hours between office time, luncheon meetings and evenings at home with files. This particular day had a few hours yet to run, but Sydney recognized the new feeling of relief and satisfaction that came with Friday afternoons when the work force began to anticipate Saturday mornings.
Throughout her adult life one day of the week had been the same as the next; all of them a scattershot of charity functions, shopping and lunch dates. There had been no work schedule, and weekends had simply been a time when the parties had lasted longer.
Things had changed. As she read over a new contract, she was glad they had. She was beginning to understand why her grandfather had always been so lusty and full of life. Heâd had a purpose, a place, a goal.
Now they were hers.
True, she still had to ask advice on the more technical wordings of contracts and depended heavily on her board when it came to making deals. But she was starting to appreciateâmore, she was starting to relish the grand chess game of buying and selling buildings.
She circled what she considered a badly worded clause then answered her intercom.
âMr. Bingham to see you, Ms. Hayward.â
âSend him in, Janine. Oh, and see if you can reach Frank Marlowe at Marlowe, Radcliffe and Smyth.â
âYes, maâam.â
When Lloyd strode in a moment later, Sydney was still huddled over the contract. She held up one finger to give herself a minute to finish.
âLloyd. Iâm sorry, if I lose my concentration on all these whereas es, I have to start over.â She scrawled a note to herself, set it and the contract aside, then smiled at him. âWhat can I do for you?â
âThis Soho project. Itâs gotten entirely out of hand.â
Her lips tightened. Thinking of Soho made her think of Mikhail. Mikhail reminded her of the turbulent ride from Long Island and her latest failure as a woman. She didnât care for it.
âIn what way?â
âIn every way.â With fury barely leashed, he began to pace her
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