recover our shared past. There was nothing mystical about this. Itâs just that the objects that heâd kept, set out by Cristòfol on the table, triggered memories, and the distances that separated us were whittled away. Four boys reliving anecdotes, obsessions, words, disappointments, and emotions. After three hours it was as if weâd known each other all our lives. Each one of us seized upon coincidences in the happy certainty that any mention was enough for the other three to endorse them unanimously. The game got us laughing. Since there was no light in the apartment, when it got dark we went off to find a café so that we could get on with our forensic examination. One thing led to another. At three in the morning a sleepy waiter kicked us out of the hotel bar.
After that first joint visit to the apartment in Carrer NÃ pols, we agreed that the four of us would pay our fatherâs overdue rent. A first step. This is how the apartment became a sort of social hub, the headquarters for our inquiries. Rita, who still refuses to set foot in the place, mocks us, saying that soon weâre going to turn it into the Christophers Club, âa museum with a guard, dusty display cases, and red ropes blocking entry to the conjugal bedrooms.â
This is slightly over the top. Weâre not father worshippers, not us. You could even say that if weâve ganged up to find him itâs got more to do with satisfying our curiosity than concern for him. Right now, if we set our minds to it, we could reel off a whole catalogue of shared grudges just as effortlessly as weâre weaving together our childhood memories. And, needless to say, all of us, each one of his own accord and without discussing it, have more than once been tempted to throw in the towel. It would be very easy right now to pretend that Gabriel no longer exists. Weâve had many years of training for that.
âHeâs a real nowhere man, sitting in his nowhere land . . .â Chris intones as if capturing our thoughts.
What is it that impels us to look for him, then? We might say itâs the urge to complete an impossible family portrait of our father. During that first visit when we all went together to the apartment, we were entranced by the clues that our meticulous examination of Gabrielâs belongings threw up; they proved impossible to ignore. One parcel contained ten brand-new packs of cards, all wrapped up in cellophane. Three carefully piled boxes held a jumble of improbable objects, painstakingly stowed away so as to make the best use of the space: a tortoiseshell comb, a ceramic figure representing Actaeon and his hounds, a teakwood paperweight, the shell of a tortoise, a radio-cassette player, a tape of MarÃa Dolores Pradera and another one of Xavier Cugatâs orchestra, a foldout postcard book with pictures of London, a toy camera, some Swiss nail clippers, a collection of casino chips from Monte Carlo for playing poker . . .
The only link that could be established between all these knickknacks was, of course, our fatherâs peripatetic existence. For some yearsâand weâre jumping ahead nowâBundó, Gabriel, and Petroli retained some souvenir from every move they did. A box, a bag, a suitcase went astray by accident, and they shared it out like good brothers. They knew it was an offence but had made the excuse that it was social justice, portraying it as a well-deserved tip after so many hours of nonstop toil in conditions close to slavery. Anyway, who hasnât lost a box during a move? Itâs a fact of life.
Gabriel had confessed these thefts to our mothers, with the nonchalance of a Robin Hood, and even made us beneficiaries. Thanks to one of Cristòfolâs finds, we were better able to follow the course of those years. In a shoebox, nestling among restaurant cards, city maps, and road atlases, was a black oilcloth notebook. It had a clandestine look about it
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