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how she felt when I looked at her and how I gave her butterflies. She wanted and needed sex, but she was having unexpected feelings and that was confusing her. I had to show her she could have it all.
***
Gia
Ethan scooted me forward a little so he could turn my face to his. “Gia, I know you’re not a whore. I’ve been unfair to you, teasing you. I didn’t mean to do that. I hadn’t even realized I was doing it. You are an aphrodisiac for me, too, and I acted on it. When I brought you up here, I was hoping to watch the sun come up with you in my arms. I’ve always wanted to share this with someone. Then, when I thought things might get physical, I got scared, because like I said, I don’t want to lose you right when I’m so close to getting to know you. I would like to help you find yourself. You don’t want to open up to me yet, but eventually I want to gain your trust and show you it’s okay. Gia, stay with me a little longer.”
I turned my back to him and slid up against him, pulling his arms around me so we were both facing the East. I thought about what he’d just said. He doesn’t want to lose me right when he’s so close to getting to know me? He wants to help me find myself? He really was sensitive, and he wanted to get to know me, but what about what I want? It did feel nice to sit here with him, though. I felt stupid that I’d wept in front of him but I did appreciate the way he held me carefully and let me get it out. I couldn’t help getting emotional every time I thought about my past relationships, Lex and his disapproving looks every month when I got my period. Jason when I asked him to leave my apartment in tears after I practically seduced him and then chickened out. And then I met Ethan, this great guy, sexy as hell, and all I wanted was to get laid, but he turned into Mr. Fucking Sensitive. Will I ever have a normal relationship?
He rested his chin on my shoulder and whispered in my ear, “I’m so glad that we talked, at least we know what each other is looking for. I’m more than willing to give you what you need, and I’m hoping that you’ll trust me enough to open up and give us a real chance to get to know each other.” He squeezed me and kissed my neck. We watched, in silence, as the sun peeked up from the horizon, it was majestic. It reminded me of the artwork hanging in Mr. Evans’ office. I was feeling peaceful at that moment, and that was a rare feeling for me.
I turned back around, still on Ethan’s lap, wrapped my legs around him, put my hands on his beautiful face and kissed him, slowly, seductively, running my fingers through his hair. Everything about him felt strong and safe. I didn’t know why I felt safe with him. I guess it was the fact that he hadn’t taken advantage of me or my foolish behavior, even though that’s what I’d wanted. He put his hands under the back of my shirt and ran them up my skin. It felt nice and made me arch and put my face up toward the stars. This gave him the opportunity to kiss my neck, slowly up to my ear and back down again. I started to breathe heavier. Then he went slowly up to my other ear.
Every kiss was very deliberate and made me want more, but this time he whispered, “I want you, Gia. I want to give you what you need. Let’s go back to my place.”
I looked into his eyes. “Yes,” I whispered. “Take me there.”
Chapter 8
When we got back to Ethan’s house, he carried me inside and laid me on his fluffy bed. It smelled really fresh and clean. I watched him as he made his way around the room, closing blinds and pulling curtains shut. After each one he would look back at me as if he was waiting for me to change my mind or something. No chance, this was my moment, I wanted to do this, I had to do this. When he finished, he came to me and picked me up again.
He carried me to the bathroom and turned on the shower, never saying a word. My mind was racing, along with my hormones and
***
Gia
Ethan scooted me forward a little so he could turn my face to his. “Gia, I know you’re not a whore. I’ve been unfair to you, teasing you. I didn’t mean to do that. I hadn’t even realized I was doing it. You are an aphrodisiac for me, too, and I acted on it. When I brought you up here, I was hoping to watch the sun come up with you in my arms. I’ve always wanted to share this with someone. Then, when I thought things might get physical, I got scared, because like I said, I don’t want to lose you right when I’m so close to getting to know you. I would like to help you find yourself. You don’t want to open up to me yet, but eventually I want to gain your trust and show you it’s okay. Gia, stay with me a little longer.”
I turned my back to him and slid up against him, pulling his arms around me so we were both facing the East. I thought about what he’d just said. He doesn’t want to lose me right when he’s so close to getting to know me? He wants to help me find myself? He really was sensitive, and he wanted to get to know me, but what about what I want? It did feel nice to sit here with him, though. I felt stupid that I’d wept in front of him but I did appreciate the way he held me carefully and let me get it out. I couldn’t help getting emotional every time I thought about my past relationships, Lex and his disapproving looks every month when I got my period. Jason when I asked him to leave my apartment in tears after I practically seduced him and then chickened out. And then I met Ethan, this great guy, sexy as hell, and all I wanted was to get laid, but he turned into Mr. Fucking Sensitive. Will I ever have a normal relationship?
He rested his chin on my shoulder and whispered in my ear, “I’m so glad that we talked, at least we know what each other is looking for. I’m more than willing to give you what you need, and I’m hoping that you’ll trust me enough to open up and give us a real chance to get to know each other.” He squeezed me and kissed my neck. We watched, in silence, as the sun peeked up from the horizon, it was majestic. It reminded me of the artwork hanging in Mr. Evans’ office. I was feeling peaceful at that moment, and that was a rare feeling for me.
I turned back around, still on Ethan’s lap, wrapped my legs around him, put my hands on his beautiful face and kissed him, slowly, seductively, running my fingers through his hair. Everything about him felt strong and safe. I didn’t know why I felt safe with him. I guess it was the fact that he hadn’t taken advantage of me or my foolish behavior, even though that’s what I’d wanted. He put his hands under the back of my shirt and ran them up my skin. It felt nice and made me arch and put my face up toward the stars. This gave him the opportunity to kiss my neck, slowly up to my ear and back down again. I started to breathe heavier. Then he went slowly up to my other ear.
Every kiss was very deliberate and made me want more, but this time he whispered, “I want you, Gia. I want to give you what you need. Let’s go back to my place.”
I looked into his eyes. “Yes,” I whispered. “Take me there.”
Chapter 8
When we got back to Ethan’s house, he carried me inside and laid me on his fluffy bed. It smelled really fresh and clean. I watched him as he made his way around the room, closing blinds and pulling curtains shut. After each one he would look back at me as if he was waiting for me to change my mind or something. No chance, this was my moment, I wanted to do this, I had to do this. When he finished, he came to me and picked me up again.
He carried me to the bathroom and turned on the shower, never saying a word. My mind was racing, along with my hormones and
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