answer? I decided to test my theory. "I'm interested as long as…"
"As long as what?"
I shrugged and tried to keep my voice level. "As long as you don't ruin things between us."
"Ruin things between us? After how long I…How the hell could I or would I do that, Sherlyn?"
"What were you going to say?"
"Nothing important."
I didn't believe that for a second. "Why won't you open up and be honest with me, about your feelings, Thomas?"
"Given the circumstances, you know as much about my feelings as you need to."
"What circumstances?"
"Your never ending ball busting attempts."
"My…what? What the hell are you talking about, Darkwater?"
He narrowed his gaze. "I'm talking about your constant harping on your lack of real feelings for me. If you tell me once more how this is strictly about sex, I'll…"
"You'll what?"
He shook his head. "Never mind."
"No. Go on. How else am I going to know what you're talking about if you won't say what you mean?"
"I'll be tempted to fuck you raw and change your mind."
"That's not going to happen."
"Don't delude yourself into thinking I couldn't change your mind if I really tried, Sherlyn. I think we both know that I could, but because of my…But I'll respect your wishes and not try."
His refusal to finish a damned sentence and his implication that I was so weak-willed that he could change my mind with a little effort angered me. Even though I knew he was right, it hurt that he felt the need to say it aloud.
"Despite your convictions and belief in your sexual prowess, Darkwater, your desire to lie inside me raw has to stop."
"It's Thomas and what if it doesn't stop?"
"It has to stop."
"Or what?"
"Or it's over."
He shook his head. "No it doesn't have to stop and it's not going to stop."
I stared at him. He'd called my bluff. What now?
"I've given you my word I won't fuck you raw unless I have your permission to. If we're going to continue what we started last night, you're not going to be the only one laying down rules. While we're sleeping together, you'll have my undivided attention and sexual interest. I won't see or sleep with anyone else. But I am not giving up lying inside you raw after I come."
"Why not?"
"For me that's the ultimate…"
"The ultimate what?"
He shook his head. "It doesn't matter."
"And what if it matters to me?" I asked.
He shrugged. "Fine. It's just something I really enjoy."
Damn it. Yet another unexpressed feeling or sentiment. "It's a wonder your recklessness hasn't gotten you into trouble."
"I've never done it with anyone but you."
I believed him and was touched. Nevertheless…"It's crazy behavior, Darkwater! You have cum all over your cock—"
"That's part of what makes it so satisfying for me…lying inside you with the remnants of cum from my cock also inside you."
Listening to the emotion and passion in his voice made my pussy pulse and my heart race. He almost sounded as if he would welcome complications in the form of an unplanned pregnancy.
He paused. "Are you telling me you don't enjoy it too?"
Of course, I enjoyed having the first man I'd ever loved inside me raw. I blushed but didn't look away. "It doesn't matter if I enjoy it or not."
"Do you enjoy it?"
"Yes," I admitted. "I do."
"Then why are we having this discussion?"
"Because we're both old enough to know how dangerous such irresponsible behavior can be."
"That's probably part of what makes it so gratifying."
"How gratifying would it be if I ended up pregnant?"
"You're using birth control."
"Yes, I am, but accidents happen."
"So I hear."
"Then why—"
"But that's my one condition, Sherlyn. I'm not budging on it."
"I'm not going to wind up a single mother, Darkwater."
"If that happens, we'll deal with it."
I stiffened. "What do you mean by deal with it?"
He narrowed his gaze. "I'll tell you what I don't mean and that's abortion," he said.
I relaxed. "Now I know what you don't mean. Let's try for what you do mean."
He stared at me and laughed. "Honestly,
"As long as what?"
I shrugged and tried to keep my voice level. "As long as you don't ruin things between us."
"Ruin things between us? After how long I…How the hell could I or would I do that, Sherlyn?"
"What were you going to say?"
"Nothing important."
I didn't believe that for a second. "Why won't you open up and be honest with me, about your feelings, Thomas?"
"Given the circumstances, you know as much about my feelings as you need to."
"What circumstances?"
"Your never ending ball busting attempts."
"My…what? What the hell are you talking about, Darkwater?"
He narrowed his gaze. "I'm talking about your constant harping on your lack of real feelings for me. If you tell me once more how this is strictly about sex, I'll…"
"You'll what?"
He shook his head. "Never mind."
"No. Go on. How else am I going to know what you're talking about if you won't say what you mean?"
"I'll be tempted to fuck you raw and change your mind."
"That's not going to happen."
"Don't delude yourself into thinking I couldn't change your mind if I really tried, Sherlyn. I think we both know that I could, but because of my…But I'll respect your wishes and not try."
His refusal to finish a damned sentence and his implication that I was so weak-willed that he could change my mind with a little effort angered me. Even though I knew he was right, it hurt that he felt the need to say it aloud.
"Despite your convictions and belief in your sexual prowess, Darkwater, your desire to lie inside me raw has to stop."
"It's Thomas and what if it doesn't stop?"
"It has to stop."
"Or what?"
"Or it's over."
He shook his head. "No it doesn't have to stop and it's not going to stop."
I stared at him. He'd called my bluff. What now?
"I've given you my word I won't fuck you raw unless I have your permission to. If we're going to continue what we started last night, you're not going to be the only one laying down rules. While we're sleeping together, you'll have my undivided attention and sexual interest. I won't see or sleep with anyone else. But I am not giving up lying inside you raw after I come."
"Why not?"
"For me that's the ultimate…"
"The ultimate what?"
He shook his head. "It doesn't matter."
"And what if it matters to me?" I asked.
He shrugged. "Fine. It's just something I really enjoy."
Damn it. Yet another unexpressed feeling or sentiment. "It's a wonder your recklessness hasn't gotten you into trouble."
"I've never done it with anyone but you."
I believed him and was touched. Nevertheless…"It's crazy behavior, Darkwater! You have cum all over your cock—"
"That's part of what makes it so satisfying for me…lying inside you with the remnants of cum from my cock also inside you."
Listening to the emotion and passion in his voice made my pussy pulse and my heart race. He almost sounded as if he would welcome complications in the form of an unplanned pregnancy.
He paused. "Are you telling me you don't enjoy it too?"
Of course, I enjoyed having the first man I'd ever loved inside me raw. I blushed but didn't look away. "It doesn't matter if I enjoy it or not."
"Do you enjoy it?"
"Yes," I admitted. "I do."
"Then why are we having this discussion?"
"Because we're both old enough to know how dangerous such irresponsible behavior can be."
"That's probably part of what makes it so gratifying."
"How gratifying would it be if I ended up pregnant?"
"You're using birth control."
"Yes, I am, but accidents happen."
"So I hear."
"Then why—"
"But that's my one condition, Sherlyn. I'm not budging on it."
"I'm not going to wind up a single mother, Darkwater."
"If that happens, we'll deal with it."
I stiffened. "What do you mean by deal with it?"
He narrowed his gaze. "I'll tell you what I don't mean and that's abortion," he said.
I relaxed. "Now I know what you don't mean. Let's try for what you do mean."
He stared at me and laughed. "Honestly,
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