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could be so mad at them. One guy own the hardware store up the block said that if he didn’t put his store in, then there wouldn’t be no hardware store. He said that the people who live around here don’t want to own a business.”
    “What’d you say to that?” I asked.
    “What can I say, Easy? Mr. Pirelli works hard as a motherfucker out here. He don’t know how hard it is to be black. He can’t even imagine somethin’ harder than what he doin’. I could tell him but he wouldn’t believe it.”
    I liked Paris. He was a very intelligent man. But he was a pessimist when it came to human nature. He didn’t think that he might teach that hardware store owner anything, so he just nodded at the man’s ignorance and let it ride.
    Who knows? Maybe Paris was right.
     
     
    WHEN I LEFT Florence Avenue Bookshop I was a little lost. There were a few places I could go but I wasn’t sure which one I should try first. With no other choice in mind I drove over to Sojourner Truth Junior High School, where I held the position of supervising senior head custodian.
    The main building on the upper campus showed some signs of the rioting. There was a blackened window or two and a great many more that had their panes smashed. The front door was open and a Negro National Guardsman stood sentry there, stepping aside now and again for men in uniform coming in and out.
    The sentry was brown; actually, he was little more than tan. He was holding a machine gun and staring out into space as if maybe he were standing guard at the great expanse in front of the Pearly Gates.
    “Halt!” he cried when I had only set one foot upon the concrete stairway.
    I kept on walking.
    “I said stay where you are,” he said loudly, hefting the machine gun but not exactly pointing it at me.
    “I work here, brother.”
    “School’s closed. National Guard using it as a base.”
    “I’m the building supervisor. I want to see what damage there’s been.”
    “Mr. Rawlins,” a woman’s voice called.
    I looked to my right and saw Mrs. Masters, the school principal, waving at me from her office window, about a hundred feet down the salmon-colored plaster wall.
    “I’m so glad you’re here,” she shouted. “Things are terrible.”
    “Are you okay?” I asked.
    “I’m fine but our poor school… Come to my office.”
    “I’d like to,” I said. “But the general here has orders to keep me out.”
    “It’s all right to let him in, sir,” the small woman said.
    “No ma’am.” He kept his eye on me. “I have orders that only the military and police can get in here.”
    “What rank is she?” I asked the sentinel.
    He didn’t dignify the joke with a reply.
    “At ease, soldier,” a white man in a colonel’s uniform said from just inside the wide double doors. “This man works here.”
    “But sir — ,” the guard began.
    He really didn’t like me. He was willing to argue with his superior officer over orders that would allow a smart-mouthed Negro like myself into the compound.
    “That’s enough, soldier. This man is allowed in.”
    I smiled at my brother. He scowled at me before standing aside.
    And there I was again, caught in the contradictions brought to the surface by the riots.
    The sentry took his job seriously. Who was the enemy? Black people. Even though he was colored himself it was his job to bar our entry and he intended to keep us out. Even though I didn’t know it at the time, that was the beginning of the breakup of our community. It was the first time you could see that there was another side to be on. If you identified with white people, you had a place where you were welcomed in.
    I walked past him and nodded to the officer.
    The white man merely watched my passage. As soon as he saw that I was headed in the right direction he turned on his heel and marched off, leaving the sentry and me at the opposite ends of a struggle that neither one of us had asked for.
     
     
    “OH, MR. RAWLINS,” Ada Masters cried.
    We

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