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Toads and fish swam around. Plants decorated the circumference of the little slice of heaven. It was a peaceful scenery, and one Lewis knew he would be back to visit. The atmosphere was peaceful, a place to just sit and take the time to reflect.
    “Now it’s also your spot.”
    “You would share this with me?”
    Evan chuckled. “Don’t look so stunned. As the humans say, what’s mine is yours.”
    Lewis took a steady breath. “Can I ask you something, Evan?” When the larger man nodded, Lewis continued. “When we first met…why did you hate me?”

    * * * *
    Evan led Lewis over to the rocks that sat at the edge of the pond and pulled his mate down to sit between his legs, Lewis’s back to his chest as Evan laid his chin on Lewis’s head. “I didn’t hate you, never hate. I was frustrated because you didn’t feel the pull and wouldn’t acknowledge me.”
    “But I didn’t even know you, Evan.”
    Evan closed his eyes at the truth. It was the same thing Maverick had told him.
    “Is that what that feeling was, a pull?” Lewis asked.
    “Yes.”
    “It made me want to turn around and run right into your arms,” Lewis confessed.
    “I wish you would have. I was also angry because I pride myself on control, always a clear thinker, and you were taking that from me.” Lewis chuckled. “Seems we both were pissed about that. I was angry for the same reason.”
    “You’re a control freak, too?”

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    “Yep, had to be. When my mom killed herself, I knew I didn’t want to end up like her, to let someone have so much control over me that I would do something out of character. I ate control for breakfast.
    Pushed myself to finish school, better myself, you know?”
    “I can see why you would need it.” Evan kissed the top of his mate’s head. “For me, I had anger issues growing up, if you couldn’t tell already. I almost killed a boy my age when I was younger because he made fun of me for liking another boy. I knew if I didn’t take control of my emotions that I would be dead before I was old enough to leave my pack.”
    They both just sat there for awhile, lost in their own thoughts.
    Lewis broke the silence. “I started drinking when my partner was shot and killed. It was a routine questioning, and the punk didn’t want to go to jail. So, instead, he pulled out a small handgun and shoved it right at my partner’s chest. The bullet lodged into his heart, and he died instantly. We were just questioning him about a robbery next to where he worked. Kid didn’t even have a record. Come to find out, he was the one who pulled the job.”
    Evan ran his hands up and down Lewis’s arms, letting him release the demons he’d held in for so long. This would be healthy for him to let his them go. What would it have been like to live his mate’s life?
    Would he have turned out the same? A person, and a human at that, could only take so much stress.
    “The realization hit home that we really never have control over our lives. That, one day, we just blink out of existence. Scary shit when you think about it.” Evan had a feeling Lewis just admitted his greatest fear. The fear of giving someone everything that you are and then lose them.
    Evan agreed, but he had to let his mate know how he felt. “But you can’t let the fear of dying or losing the one you love control your living.”
    Lewis laughed. “You make it sound so easy.” 58
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    Evan nipped his ear. “It is when you let go of that fear and give the one you love your trust, mate.”
    Lewis settled back against his chest. “I like that word. Mate . It sounds different from boyfriend or lover, or even partner. It makes what we have feel worlds away from what I’ve experienced before. It feels closer, deeper…and, god, I sound like a girl.”
    “You sound good to me. I like that you feel that way, that what we have is different. There’s one more advantage to being mated to me.” Evan saved this for last, hoping Lewis