tears.”
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me, Sadie. I’m not sad he’s gone.” I scoot to a sitting position and cross my legs.
“Well,” Sadie says, biting the inside of her cheek, “things haven’t really been stellar between you guys recently so I guess that makes sense.”
“I know, but you would still think that I’d shed a tear or two. And it wasn’t just me, it was him, too. He seemed so eager to leave me.” I rest my head in my hands, wondering how someone I thought I could love just deserted me and the only thing I feel is liberation.
“You know Rob. He’s always been more…” she hesitates.
“About himself,” I finish for her.
“Yeah,” she sighs. “Not that he doesn’t love you, Jessa. It’s just that music seems to take precedence in his life.” Sadie is always one to avoid hurting anyone’s feelings.
“Just say it, Sadie,” I challenge, cocking my head to the side.
“What?” she asks innocently.
“Tell me…just tell me that he’s an asshole. I know you want to, so just do it.” I stand up and toss the picture on my dresser. I don’t understand why I’m feeling angry now. Am I mad at myself for not being upset over Rob leaving? Are my feelings for Grant the reason my relationship with Rob suffered and we got to this point?
Sadie walks over to me and rests her hand on my shoulder. “It’s okay, Jessa. Don’t blame yourself for something that’s out of your control.” I turn around and see the concern that fills her eyes. She only wants the best for me and has stood by my side all this time, even though she hated Rob.
“I’m sorry,” I say and sink down on the bed again.
“You can’t control who your feelings are for,” she says, raising her eyebrows to signify, she knows how Grant consumes my thoughts.
“I’m so confused, Sadie. Grant wouldn’t want me anyways. The sickest part of this is that I should be in tears on my bed, grieving over the fact that my boyfriend just left. Instead, all I can think of is that maybe this is my chance with Grant.” A tear of remorse escapes my eyes. “Fuck, what kind of person am I?” I let my head fall into my hands as sobs start spilling out of me.
She crawls up on the bed and wraps her arm around my shoulders. “It’s okay to feel that way, Jessa. They’re your feelings, don’t deny them. I’m not saying it’s not complicated, but you should definitely break it off with Rob and see where things go with Grant.” She speaks softly in my ear, as though someone else is in the room.
“Ugh…that’s just it. I was going to.” I shake my head, upset that I put myself in this position, but also that Rob put me in it too. “I was going to break it off tonight, but then this news…it just threw me off, that’s all.”
“Why don’t you come to the show and get your mind off of things? You can deal with this tomorrow,” she says and I nod my head.
“Yeah, I guess I could go. But I’ll have to meet you there,” I tell her and we both stand up. She wraps her arms around me again in a tight hug.
“Don’t be too long. You know I hate being there by myself while they play.” she reminds me.
“You’re the lead singer’s girlfriend. The girls envy you and the guys want to fuck you.” I reply and we both laugh.
“Don’t say that to Brady. He would never let me go to one of his shows again,” she says with a smile before leaving the room.
Laughing to myself, I go into the bathroom to get ready.
Chapter 6
Grant
The ringing of my phone pulls my attention from the basketball game on the television. Hitting the mute button, I reach over, see that it’s Brady. I wonder why he’s wonder why he
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me, Sadie. I’m not sad he’s gone.” I scoot to a sitting position and cross my legs.
“Well,” Sadie says, biting the inside of her cheek, “things haven’t really been stellar between you guys recently so I guess that makes sense.”
“I know, but you would still think that I’d shed a tear or two. And it wasn’t just me, it was him, too. He seemed so eager to leave me.” I rest my head in my hands, wondering how someone I thought I could love just deserted me and the only thing I feel is liberation.
“You know Rob. He’s always been more…” she hesitates.
“About himself,” I finish for her.
“Yeah,” she sighs. “Not that he doesn’t love you, Jessa. It’s just that music seems to take precedence in his life.” Sadie is always one to avoid hurting anyone’s feelings.
“Just say it, Sadie,” I challenge, cocking my head to the side.
“What?” she asks innocently.
“Tell me…just tell me that he’s an asshole. I know you want to, so just do it.” I stand up and toss the picture on my dresser. I don’t understand why I’m feeling angry now. Am I mad at myself for not being upset over Rob leaving? Are my feelings for Grant the reason my relationship with Rob suffered and we got to this point?
Sadie walks over to me and rests her hand on my shoulder. “It’s okay, Jessa. Don’t blame yourself for something that’s out of your control.” I turn around and see the concern that fills her eyes. She only wants the best for me and has stood by my side all this time, even though she hated Rob.
“I’m sorry,” I say and sink down on the bed again.
“You can’t control who your feelings are for,” she says, raising her eyebrows to signify, she knows how Grant consumes my thoughts.
“I’m so confused, Sadie. Grant wouldn’t want me anyways. The sickest part of this is that I should be in tears on my bed, grieving over the fact that my boyfriend just left. Instead, all I can think of is that maybe this is my chance with Grant.” A tear of remorse escapes my eyes. “Fuck, what kind of person am I?” I let my head fall into my hands as sobs start spilling out of me.
She crawls up on the bed and wraps her arm around my shoulders. “It’s okay to feel that way, Jessa. They’re your feelings, don’t deny them. I’m not saying it’s not complicated, but you should definitely break it off with Rob and see where things go with Grant.” She speaks softly in my ear, as though someone else is in the room.
“Ugh…that’s just it. I was going to.” I shake my head, upset that I put myself in this position, but also that Rob put me in it too. “I was going to break it off tonight, but then this news…it just threw me off, that’s all.”
“Why don’t you come to the show and get your mind off of things? You can deal with this tomorrow,” she says and I nod my head.
“Yeah, I guess I could go. But I’ll have to meet you there,” I tell her and we both stand up. She wraps her arms around me again in a tight hug.
“Don’t be too long. You know I hate being there by myself while they play.” she reminds me.
“You’re the lead singer’s girlfriend. The girls envy you and the guys want to fuck you.” I reply and we both laugh.
“Don’t say that to Brady. He would never let me go to one of his shows again,” she says with a smile before leaving the room.
Laughing to myself, I go into the bathroom to get ready.
Chapter 6
Grant
The ringing of my phone pulls my attention from the basketball game on the television. Hitting the mute button, I reach over, see that it’s Brady. I wonder why he’s wonder why he
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