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your ankles.”
    “You’re tying my feet, too?”
    “Jesus was bound and constrained when he died. Cross your ankles.”
    I crossed my ankles. He tied them together, then took another tie and bound me to his footboard. Completely immobilized, I started to shiver. He threw the blanket over my body and started arranging my hair.
    “You want to paste a false beard on me?”
    He didn’t answer, smoothing out loose strands of hair. He moved my head to one side, then to the other. He told me to look up, look down, close my eyes, open my eyes, smile, frown, then look beatific. Finally, he stood and removed the blanket from my body. Chris studied me for a long time.
    He went to his easel and drew for twenty minutes, then stopped. “The angle’s not right. It’s too much an aerial view.”
    “Perhaps you’d like to construct a cross and we can try it again next week.”
    His voice turned harsh. “Don’t make fun of me.”
    I was quiet, felt tears in my eyes. He stared at me for a moment, then threw his chalk across the room. “ Fuck it!”
    He stomped over and began untying my arms, angryand frustrated. I felt as if I’d failed him. Worse yet, I felt as if I’d failed art.
    Freed of the binds, I shook out my limbs as he sat dejected on the edge of his bed. I blanketed myself with his comforter, sat next to him, and reached for his hand. He tensed at my touch. I withdrew my fingers.
    I said, “It’s early, Christopher. Let’s try it again.”
    He looked at his watch. “It’s almost nine. How much time do you have?”
    “As much as you need.”
    He ran his hand over his face. “God, I’m being a selfish pig. You’re pale. You must be hungry. Let me take you out to eat.”
    “No, it’s okay. Let’s just keep going.”
    “Not until I get some nutrition into you.” He stood and began to pace. “Put on one of my robes and I’ll make you something. While you’re eating, I want to look at some religious art books. That sound okay?”
    “Yes, it sounds ducky.”
    He bent down and kissed my forehead. “You’re a great sport.”
    “Thank you,” I muttered. “You can put it on my tombstone as an epitaph.”
    He left without answering me. I shuddered. I was sorry I’d made the wisecrack.
     
    After the break, Chris became very mathematical about his proportions. He measured distances and angles—from my shoulder to my hand, from my hand to his headboard. He struggled with many positions until he found a couple of poses he liked. By the time he actually began drawing, it was close to eleven. At one in the morning, Chris ripped up his current work.
    “I’m fading.” He paused. “You looked tired, too.”
    I was exhausted. I never realized that modeling was such hard work. He untied me. I shook out my limbs, feeling numb and drained. He placed the comforteraround my shoulders, then told me to put my clothes on.
    He didn’t see me when I walked into the living room. I watched him play back his answering machine messages, the last being a girl telling him to get his butt over to Tom’s because he was missing a terrific party. I knew the voice. She was pretty and loose—two traits that made her very popular. Short blond hair and bright blue eyes. The sex goddess of Central West Valley High.
    “Cheryl Diggs,” I said.
    Chris turned the machine off and pivoted to face me. “You’ve got a better ear than I thought.”
    “For some things.” I rubbed my eyes. “What’s the story with you and her? Why is she always giving you neck rubs?”
    “What are you really asking me, Terry? You want to know whether I’ve slept with her? Yes, I have.”
    I looked away. Chris said, “You want me to treat you like I treat her, Terry?”
    “No, but…”
    He waited for me to complete my sentence.
    I sat on his sofa. He sat next to me. I didn’t look at him. “I’m not a nun, Chris. I have sexual feelings—”
    “I know that—”
    “I also have human feelings. I get jealous.”
    “And that’s precisely why