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moved and glided.
I sat down and prepared for nightfall
Exploring
In the morning I felt like a toddler who has suddenly found his feet and wants to run everywhere while often crashing and falling. As I explored the possibilities of movement without the restraint of gravity I made many errors particularly when I tried to rise in height or when I sent myself going forward too fast and ended up tumbling and rolling half off the ground and often bouncing on the ground.
I was free of earthly tethers and I realised that many of the negative emotions that had plagued me seemed to have disappeared almost entirely, indeed it was hard to even recall what they had felt like. Although I still had the words for the emotions they no longer called up identifiable echoes in my mind. My past seemed to be slipping from me and I had a feeling of being new born, a new creation, a lamb gambolling in the fields in spring time.
I spent the day trying to master my new ability and by the time darkness drew in again I felt I had got the hang of the basics. As I mused under the tree I realised that I did not ache and could have gone on much longer.
I lay floating just above the ground, my hands behind my head watching the stars in the sky. Each night there seemed to be more of them burning ever more brightly. I felt no heat or cold and my sleep was that of child, deep and untroubled.
Sleep was an instant event now, no longer a case of tossing and turning and waiting but rather my mind switched off and then on again as I awoke. There was no sense of grogginess or the need to yawn and stretch. I was changing and I barely noticed this happening until several days later as I bent down to take water I saw my reflection in the water and for a long time failed to recognise myself. I find it hard to describe but somehow this new lightness of being was reflected in the water. I seemed to be more like light than anything else but that is woefully inadequate. In fact at first glance I felt there must be someone behind me and I looked round to find no one of course.
I lost count of the number of days I spent in this idyll. I mastered the art of moving without gravity and I explored the valley with great ease discovering the source of the river on the side of the far off mountain cliff and discovered that it disappeared under ground at the other end of the valley. The valley itself was enclosed and there was no way in or out. The sheer cliffs and mountains that surrounded the valley proved too high even for my body to rise up to and I discovered that I was limited to a certain height above the ground and then I could rise no further. I don't know whether or not I hit a physical or mental barrier but barrier there was to prevent me from going further. I had never been comfortable with heights but now I had no fear of falling. I was able to enjoy the view from above and felt the effortless freedom of the birds that float on rising air currents and move in lazy circles.
I had no desire to top the mountains or to even wonder what lay beyond. I was happy to be here in this wonderful still valley. My bodily needs were few and satisfied with the water and and sweet growths that appeared fresh each morning. Occasionally it occurred to me that I was alone and yet I felt no sense of loss or need for companionship. I was content and at peace and found myself slipping happily into life in the valley. I was aware of changes taking place in [my] mind. I was so at peace with where I was that I no longer found the need to sit under a tree and dwell on what was happening or to try and work it out. My days of trying to reason seemed to be over and yet as each day passed I felt I knew more than I had ever known before but the knowledge is beyond my ability to express here for it wasn't knowledge about things but about a growing awareness of reality as it actually was.
I lost count of the days at this time and there was no indication in the valley of any passing of
I sat down and prepared for nightfall
Exploring
In the morning I felt like a toddler who has suddenly found his feet and wants to run everywhere while often crashing and falling. As I explored the possibilities of movement without the restraint of gravity I made many errors particularly when I tried to rise in height or when I sent myself going forward too fast and ended up tumbling and rolling half off the ground and often bouncing on the ground.
I was free of earthly tethers and I realised that many of the negative emotions that had plagued me seemed to have disappeared almost entirely, indeed it was hard to even recall what they had felt like. Although I still had the words for the emotions they no longer called up identifiable echoes in my mind. My past seemed to be slipping from me and I had a feeling of being new born, a new creation, a lamb gambolling in the fields in spring time.
I spent the day trying to master my new ability and by the time darkness drew in again I felt I had got the hang of the basics. As I mused under the tree I realised that I did not ache and could have gone on much longer.
I lay floating just above the ground, my hands behind my head watching the stars in the sky. Each night there seemed to be more of them burning ever more brightly. I felt no heat or cold and my sleep was that of child, deep and untroubled.
Sleep was an instant event now, no longer a case of tossing and turning and waiting but rather my mind switched off and then on again as I awoke. There was no sense of grogginess or the need to yawn and stretch. I was changing and I barely noticed this happening until several days later as I bent down to take water I saw my reflection in the water and for a long time failed to recognise myself. I find it hard to describe but somehow this new lightness of being was reflected in the water. I seemed to be more like light than anything else but that is woefully inadequate. In fact at first glance I felt there must be someone behind me and I looked round to find no one of course.
I lost count of the number of days I spent in this idyll. I mastered the art of moving without gravity and I explored the valley with great ease discovering the source of the river on the side of the far off mountain cliff and discovered that it disappeared under ground at the other end of the valley. The valley itself was enclosed and there was no way in or out. The sheer cliffs and mountains that surrounded the valley proved too high even for my body to rise up to and I discovered that I was limited to a certain height above the ground and then I could rise no further. I don't know whether or not I hit a physical or mental barrier but barrier there was to prevent me from going further. I had never been comfortable with heights but now I had no fear of falling. I was able to enjoy the view from above and felt the effortless freedom of the birds that float on rising air currents and move in lazy circles.
I had no desire to top the mountains or to even wonder what lay beyond. I was happy to be here in this wonderful still valley. My bodily needs were few and satisfied with the water and and sweet growths that appeared fresh each morning. Occasionally it occurred to me that I was alone and yet I felt no sense of loss or need for companionship. I was content and at peace and found myself slipping happily into life in the valley. I was aware of changes taking place in [my] mind. I was so at peace with where I was that I no longer found the need to sit under a tree and dwell on what was happening or to try and work it out. My days of trying to reason seemed to be over and yet as each day passed I felt I knew more than I had ever known before but the knowledge is beyond my ability to express here for it wasn't knowledge about things but about a growing awareness of reality as it actually was.
I lost count of the days at this time and there was no indication in the valley of any passing of
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