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know you
aren't anxious to go back to the camp, because of... well, the
memories, but we have to go talk to Caislyn. I haven't heard from
her or Gregore, and that's not right. Something might be wrong
there."
    "I just don't want to go back there." Jaxon turned in
a huff, knowing she was being childish, but she couldn't shake all
the animosity she still felt for everyone in that camp. "My life
went to shit when I met Caislyn, more so than it already was."
    "Come on, that wasn't her fault, she didn't know
anymore than you did."
    "I know that, and it still doesn't help me. I just
keep thinking, if I had never met her, maybe I would have had a
chance to meet my mother and keep her in my life for a little
while. My mom died trying to save Caislyn's. If she hadn't been out
collecting those herbs... If..."
    "Jaxon, if you hadn't met Caislyn you may have never
met your mother. You can't keep doing this. What's done is done,
and it's not anyone's fault back at that camp." He was growing
frustrated with her, and he wasn't about to back down now. If she
wasn't going to be a grown up about things, then she wasn't the
woman he thought she was. "I will not leave them in possible
danger, not knowing what's going on." When she didn't respond he
voiced his concerns out loud, "and I can't believe you have become
the person who could do that either."
    "It's not that damn simple, Seth."
    "Yes, Jaxon, it really is. Get over it already,
there's no bringing anyone back that's been lost. You think Caislyn
hasn't lost? She lost her father. You may not have known him, but
it was a huge loss for her. And She lost you, the only friend who
was there for her when her parents were missing. You were the only
one who helped her, and because she had you, you were both able to
find your mothers. That's something. And then you just took off
without a word. Imagine how she must be feeling. And she's pregnant
on top of that and dealing with Ash and Gregore, training her ass
off in order to tell me where to find you. Did you for one minute,
while you were on your little hissy-fit rampage, think of anything
other than yourself?"
    "Seth!" Brigid interrupted.
    "No, she needs to hear this. There have been people
bending over backwards to make sure she was okay, to bring her back
and keep her safe. And she hasn't thought of any of them in all of
this. Her mom's gone, the rest of us were still there though."
    "Seth, you're being a little harsh right now," Brigid
countered.
    "No, Brigid! I am not being harsh. I don't blame you
for our entire family being killed, or for me being turned into
this monster. I blame the evils responsible for those things. You
were tricked. It happens. Caislyn had no control over the things
that were happening, not anymore than you did, Jaxon! And more
importantly, she probably kept you alive a lot longer than you
would have lasted on your own. So, you can either get your shit
together and come with me to the camp, or you can run along on your
own again, doing whatever it was you were doing before. Because, I
am going to check on the camp, and make sure everything is okay.
Then I am going to make sure they know what we've learned. What I
do after that depends on the decision you make right now."
    "Are you just about done?" Jaxon turned on him, her
eyes going blacker than night. "You forgot one little thing in your
tirade there. I killed people, I have continued to kill people. And
I like it. I don't just like it, it's a hunger that sneaks up on me
and has to be fed. I can't control that part of me. It just grows
and grows until I sate it. Have you ever taken one second to
consider that I won't go back because I am just as afraid of
hurting them as I am of how I feel about them?" Seth, just hung his
head and shook it. "Look at me!" Jaxon was on him in an instant,
snapping his head back up to look at her. "Does this look like a
person in control? Do I look like I need to be around a camp full
of food bags that also happen to be my