experiencing its emptiness suffused for her with the feel of him. Overcome sometimes with emotion, she stood leaning her face against the cold window glass. The building opposite was the same heavy, scrolled, turn-of-the-century apartment house as her own; here and there in its dark granite mass a window was lighted up like a watchful eye. The silence in her own apartment was as deep as its darkness, and Bruno slept and sleptâor she thought he did. Once, though, when exhausted with watching and waiting, she came and sank next to him again, she saw that his eyes were open and as wakeful as the windows opposite. It was a shock: âBruno?â she said, but at once his lids extinguished his gaze, and she saw that he was breathing regularly in peaceful sleep, so she must have been mistaken.
Louise and Leo had become lovers within a week of his moving in with her and Bruno. For her it was a secret that she carried within her like the gardens of paradiseâgreen, blooming, watered by eternal springs; birds sang perpetually. One day she couldnât stand it anymoreâshe had to unburden herself: of course to Regi, and in the Old Vienna.
But Regi, as soon as Louise had made her tremendous, her tremulous, confession, just laughed: âYou donât by any chance think no one knows? â When she saw the expression on Louiseâs face, she laughed more. She made a production of it, throwing back her head and opening her mouth wide with all her healthy teeth and palate flourishing within. Of course the men all around looked at her, hungry as wolves.
âYouâre wonderful,â Regi said.
âYou mean you guessed?â
âGuessed!â Again Regi laughed, but only for a moment. Then she turned serious and cynical: âWell, what do youexpectâwhat would anyone expectâwhen someone like Leo moves in with someone like you?â
Pained and bewildered, Louise protested: âBut heâs my teacher. Mine and yours.â
âYes, some teacher. Listen,â Regi went on, âI know Leo. And I know you.â
âNo, Regi, thatâs not fair.â
And it wasnât: Louise was by no means promiscuous. In giving her hand in marriage to Bruno, she had given herself totally: first as chaste bride, thenâafter the birth of their daughter (it took eleven years till Marietta was conceived)âas housewife and mother, the Ceres of his household. She adored Bruno, no other man but her husband had ever counted for her.
âOh, Iâm not blaming you,â Regi said, blowing cigarette smoke into the air, worldly-wise and tolerant. âIt was inevitable. I was just waiting for itâever since you told me what you told me.â
For in one of their tête-à -tête sessions at the Old Vienna, Louise had confessed to Regi that now she and Bruno were as father and daughter, or brother and sister, or was it mother and child?âanyway, all possible combinations except husband and wife with each other. Louise had not complained: it made no difference at all to her feelings for Bruno whom she loved as before.
âIf it hadnât been Leo,â Regi said, âit would have been someone else. Well, naturally, what are you, a nun or something?â She was quite indignant on Louiseâs behalf.
But now Louise got really angry: âYou donât think, youâre not thinking, that itâs nothing more thanâwith Leo and meââ She couldnât even bring out what she had to say and ended up with âHow horrible of you.â
Regi shrugged her slender, crepe de Chine shoulders; she lighted another cigarette; she recrossed her long legs by theside of the little marble-topped table. âSometimes you talk like a child.â
But just now Louise could hardly talk at all; she continued to stammer, partly in anger, partly in frustration at being unable to express the height and depth of her feelings. At that moment the waiter came up with
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