some time, let me know. Just to talk, get to know you, because I thought you were a nice person straight away. I’m not the type who asks all the girls out – you can ask anyone. But there’s something about you, like you’ve got this glow…” He fell silent and looked even more embarrassed.
Ellen grinned in spite of herself. “It’s nice… to be asked. I had a bad experience on the way here. There was this guy, younger than me. I was friendly, but he wanted more. I didn’t.”
“He didn’t take it so well?” Robert asked.
“That’s an understatement. A girl died and he flipped. I think something bad happened to him earlier, before I met him. It’s a long story, Robert, but in the end he kidnapped me and he died.”
“Oh, Ellen, that’s awful. Shit, I really put my foot in it. I didn’t mean to bring back bad memories. Now I get it. Sorry.”
“It’s okay. I’ve often felt that people want more from me than I can give. I’m just me, but they seem to think I’m someone different and want to change me, or they’re just disappointed when they realise I’m not who they thought I was.”
“That sucks, but are all people so demanding?” Robert asked.
“I think so. I’m just me. What you see is what you get, nothing else. I can’t give what people seem to want.”
“ Ah, I didn’t mean to get all heavy.”
“No, Robert, it’s me. It’s been a crazy few months. I guess I’m tired. I need to work through things. You asked me to go for coffee and I’ve turned it into something else, but at least you can see how crazily confused I am about everything right now.”
He nodded. “I can see it and I’m not surprised, and I don’t blame you. Friends then?”
Ellen beamed. “Friends! ”
Robert held out his hand and she shook it. “When I want coffee, I’ll let you know,” she said.
With a grin , he did a fake bow and walked away, glancing back only the once to find she was still looking in his direction. Surprised by this turn of events, Ellen opened the door to the gym and walked inside wearing a smile.
Tuesday, 25
“Why do you have to go?” Ellen pleaded for the second time. “You’re safe here.”
“Because other people don’t have this,” Marla replied, gesturing to their neighbours eating in the cafeteria. “I want to help those who are still out there, like we were.”
“But it isn’t safe.”
“I’m going too,” said Tommy.
Ellen grimaced. “That just makes it worse,” she scoffed. “You can be the one to tell Barney because I’m not. If you two want to act like superhero idiots, it’s up to you.” Getting up, she stormed off, leaving the other two to stare after her fast disappearing butt.
“Still wanna go?” Tommy asked Marla.
She shrugged. “Yeah, I can’t think of anything better to do today. Can you?”
“It’s a bit like old times, but with freaks to deal with.”
“Sure is. I don’t know why, but I’m looking forward to it in a strange way, because I want to find people. Do you know what I mean?”
“Yeah, I feel the same, only I’m not really looking forward to it.”
“Well, you’re just freaky then,” added Marla, flicking her straw at him. She giggled and got to her feet. “I’m going to head up, so I’ll see you in a bit.”
“Sure.”
Making her way to the exit, Marla contemplated the rows of people eating and talking in a way that was as close to normality as they would probably get now. Remembering old times, she smiled wanly. It was worth going out, even if it saved one person, and she had a bad case of cabin fever. Heading to the elevator, she made it up to her room quickly, where she changed and freshened up before grabbing her faithful Glock and taking the elevator down to the first floor. The rest of the patrol were already waiting in the guards’ meeting room opposite Caballero’s office, including Tommy, who gave her a big grin as if to say ‘beat you’. “Hi,” she greeted them.
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