isnât about my character or yours, itâs about the dynamics of the system. In principle, can you see why itâs important?â
I huff. âThat any generic supervisor who controls access to degreeâor moneyârelated resources not have any sexual relationship with their supervisees?â
âBecause thereâs too much potential for the supervisees not to have full choice.â
âBut I totally have full choice!â
âThe principle, Annie.â
I huff again and roll my eyes. âYes, in principle I see itâs important.â
â Why is it important?â
âBecause the subordinate person might feel like they have to do things in order not to piss off the boss person, who could retaliate.â
âThank you.â
Thereâs a pause while I struggle not to say what Iâm about to say. But it has to come out.
âBut Iâm not wrong that there is totally A Thing here,â I say. âBetween us.â I make a âbetween usâ gesture with my index finger.
âYouâre not wrong,â he concedes. âBut we are going to ignore it, because there is nothing we can do that doesnât risk your well-being, in principle, and my job, in fact.â
âWhat about after I graduate?â I donât even say it. It just comes out, entirely of its own volition.
âAnnieââ
âIn principle, â I say, âonce a supervisor no longer has any administrative power over the supervisee, isnât it okay for them to do whatever the hell they want?â And then I just sort of lose it. âHow is it fair that just because we know each other through school, we should never get to do anything about The Thing? How is that right? That canât be right.â
âHow did we get to this from the fundamental unreliability of the universe?â he asks, rubbing his eyes under his glasses.
âWe have A Thing!â I say. âWeâve had A Thing for ages! I thought I was wrong, but Iâm not wrong.â
âI give up,â he groans. âLook, why donât we talk about it after you graduate?â
âYou agree we have A Thing?â
âYes. We have A Thing. Christ on a bike.â With his elbows on his desk, he rakes his hands into his hair and stares at his blotter.
âAnd youâll talk about it after commencement, on the tenth?â As far as Iâm concerned, he has opened a negotiation.
âSure. Yes,â he tells his blotter.
âClasses end May second and Iâve got no finals, so really I wonât be a student after that. We could talk about it then, on the last day of classes, instead of waiting until after commencement.â
He looks up at me and throws himself back in his chair. âAnnieââ
âWhy not? â
âSaints defend me. Christ and all the apostles fucked up the arse by Moses, fine . All right. Weâll talk about it on the second. Now for the love of god, please get out of my office, you harpy.â He shoos me with one hand, from his trench behind his desk.
I rise, but I donât leave. âWhat time on the second?â
He turns his eyes to the heavens and says, âWhat time do classes officially end?â
âI donât know.â
âWell, go and look it up. Thatâs what time weâll talk.â
âOkay, then.â Iâm smiling now, and when I go outside, the rain has stopped.
Â
That night I text him:
Â
Classes end at 5. Where should we meet?
About ten minutes later he replies:
Â
I will not discuss this until after your defense.
Â
I answer:
Â
Spoilsport.
Â
Get back to work.
Â
OoOOooH, I like it when youâre dominant.
Â
Stop it. Iâm turning off my phone. You are a termagant and a shrew and, furthermore, you have a thesis defense to prepare.
Â
I turn off my phone and plug it in for the night, and decide to go to bed early. I get myself
Kat Richardson
Celine Conway
K. J. Parker
Leigh Redhead
Mia Sheridan
D Jordan Redhawk
Kelley Armstrong
Jim Eldridge
Robin Owens
Keith Ablow