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out that I carried you out of that
building, he was devastated. Heath loves you Lisa. Everyone knows it
but you. He is a good man who wants love. I'm his friend. There is no
way I can do that to him. You don't want me. I'm a fucked up mess,
who doesn't want love. I don't ever want to get close to anyone. I
never want anyone to depend on me, and I never want to have to depend
on anyone. I never want to lose anyone again.”
    Josh
got up and handed her the medicine and a glass of water.
    “ Take
this,” he said, not looking at her.
    She
took it and handed him back the glass. Lisa reached for him, but he
backed away. Josh grabbed the plate and handed it to her. She took it
from him as he looked at her. He could feel wetness in his eyes. She
looked into his eyes and he saw her facial expression sadden. He
grabbed his plate and walked out the door.
    “ Josh,”
she called out. “Come back here.”
    He
didn't come back.
    “ Do
you need something right now?” he asked.
    “ I
need you to come back here,” she said.
    “ Eat
your food. You have to eat with that medicine. I am eating out here,
as you requested.”
    “ Come
back in here, please,” she said.
    “ I
can't,” he answered.
    She
sat quietly and ate. After a little bit, he could hear a bunch of
noise and moving around. He got up, went to her bedroom, and looked
in. She was pulling her walker across the floor as she leaned halfway
off the bed. He shook his head and let out a snarl.
    “ What
the fuck are you doing?” he snapped.
    “ I'm
getting my walker, so I can go into the other room,” she
answered.
    “ Why?”
he asked. “What do you need?”
    “ I
need you to talk to me. I'm not going to touch you, don't worry about
that,” she snapped.
    “ I'm
not worried,” he snapped back.
    “ What
did you mean?” she asked. “When you said you don't want
to lose anyone, again?”
    “ I
don't want to talk about it,” he said.
    “ Who
did you lose, Josh?” she asked.
    He
looked at her for a bit. Josh walked over and helped her back onto
the bed.
    “ My
dad,” he answered. “I lost my dad. I saw what it was like
for my mom to lose the love of her life. I don't ever want to do that
to anyone, and I don't ever want that to happen to me. I don't want
love.”
    She
looked up at him and stared into his eyes.
    “ How
did you lose your dad, Josh?” she asked.
    He
looked down at the floor as the beep noise sounded.
    “ Shit!”
he groaned, as he shook his head. “Will you be okay for a
little bit? Do you need anything before I go?”
    He
grabbed his shoes and put them on.
    “ No,
I'm fine,” she said. “Please, be careful.”
    “ Call
me if you need anything,” he shouted from the other room. “Do
you still have my number?”
    “ Yes,
I do. Josh, please be careful,” he heard her shout as he shut
the front door.
    ***
    After
about an hour, Lisa was nervous. Where was he? How long would it take
him to get back? She could not imagine every being with Josh. It
scared her and he was only gone for an hour. What if he had been gone
for hours? Would she always be worried every time he left? How did
wives or husbands of firefighters do it? She pulled out her phone and
text him.
    “ Are
you okay?”
    She
sat with her phone next to her and waited. After about a half an
hour, her phone beeped. She hurried to read the text.
    “ Yes,
I will be there in a little bit. We just got back to the station. I
have to do a couple things before I can leave. Are you okay? Do you
need something right now?”
    “ No,
I was just checking. See you in a bit.”
    Lisa
put her phone back on the bed. She felt bad that Josh lost his
father. It wasn't about not wanting to be with her. He didn't want to
be with anyone. She wondered how Josh had lost his father. She was
surprised Heath had never mentioned it. Heath, oh crap, she thought.
He never mentioned Josh to her. Things were starting to make sense to
her. Anytime she mentioned Josh to Heath, he would get irritated. She
just thought