blooms. Did Philip know that blue roses did not grow naturally and symbolized the unattainable? She touched a satin-smooth petal. Blue roses also meant I can’t stop thinking about you . How appropriate. She hadn’t stopped thinking about him since the day he’d showed up for his first appointment. In truth, she hadn’t really stopped thinking about him for fourteen years. She pulled the forgotten envelope from her pocket and slipped the card out. Happy Birthday to the loveliest woman I’ve ever known.
Chapter 12 August 2001 Tide’s Way, North Carolina PHILIP LEANED ON the railing of his parent’s deck, staring out at the big waves rolling in and breaking on the beach below. It was meant to be, Philip . Elena’s words after a soul-melting kiss that left him breathless and thoroughly aroused just before she flitted upstairs to take a shower. Without her intoxicating presence scrambling his brain, he was questioning the wisdom of starting something he wouldn’t be able to finish. Their time together would come to a frustrating halt in just over a week, and he wouldn’t see her again until Christmas. What am I doing? She’s just a kid. This is a bad idea. She was nineteen. He was almost twenty-nine. Ten years older and far more experienced. Even if she wasn’t a virgin, she could hardly know what or who she wanted for herself. He’d like nothing better than to leave her with a wedding band on her finger and a baby in her belly. But that wasn’t fair to her. She needed to finish college. Even an engagement ring would be asking too much. Until today, he’d kept a tight rein on his desire to possess her physically, but she’d blasted through his restraint. Her free-spirited enthusiasm and honest acceptance of the sizzle that they both felt had been the final straw. Wise or not, he was going to make love to her and satisfy them both. A week to pack in enough lovemaking to last for the rest of his deployment wasn’t nearly long enough, but it was all he had. When he got back to the states, if she still felt the same way she did now, then he’d get a ring and get down on one knee to pledge himself to her forever. But for now . . . For now, he was going to do his best to stop agonizing about being smart and just enjoy what they had going. “I thought I’d find you out here.” Startled because he hadn’t heard her coming, Philip whipped around to see Elena halfway across the deck. She wore one of his dress shirts buttoned just enough to leave plenty to the imagination. He was instantly hard and, considering the saucy grin on her face, she knew it. She had a beer in each hand and held one out to him. “You’re not old enough for this.” He took both bottles from her and set them on the railing. “Besides, I want you sober and very sure about what you’re doing.” She placed a hand on his bare chest and slowly trailed her fingers down over his abs to his waistband. His stomach quivered under her touch and his groin throbbed. “I’m very sure,” she said, lightly touching the tip of his erection through the fabric of his shorts. “But—” “But?” His heart hammered in his chest and blood pounded through his body as her knuckles skimmed down the length of him. “I’m not on the pill. I hope you have protection.” She smelled like his shampoo and his Irish Spring soap, but somehow, the combination on her aroused the hell out of him. “I have protection,” he gasped as her hand closed completely around the bulge in his shorts. “On you?” She peered up at him with her brows lifted and a sultry look in her dark eyes. She took her hand away from his pants and walked her fingers up his chest. He reached into his pocket and brought out the little box. Then he shoved it back into his pocket, feeling suddenly embarrassed. He was glad she was responsible, but it still felt awkward. Like she was the experienced one and he was just a kid eager for his first lay. “I see you found