Under the window?â
âYep.â
âOr along that wall.â
âYep.â
The younger removalist smiles at me then. Heâs obviously about as interested as I am. The couch looked good in our old house because itâs square with sharp edges and stiff arms. But here, in this peeling room, it doesnât fit. Just like me.
âCome on, Lil. Help.â
âI am. Iâm helping. It looks fine. Wherever.â
âJohn? What do you think?â
Dad pretends to consider both options. I know heâs faking because he doesnât care about stuff like furniture or making rooms look pretty. As long as he can lie on the couch and see the TV from where heâs lying, he doesnât care about anything else. He points vaguely in the direction of the wall and I think thatâs pretty clever, because he isnât really committing to either. He can argue later that he was actually pointing to the window. But of course Mum already has her own opinion, and sheâs just pretending to ask for ours, so whatever we say doesnât really matter. Sheâs faking too.
âGreat. I agree. The wall.â
Dad smiles like he had something to do with it.
âPicked a room yet, Lil?â Mum says.
âYep.â
She expected me to be difficult for longer. Sheâll be even more surprised when she sees the room Iâve chosen, but I might leave that revelation until Iâve moved my bed up the stairs and itâs harder for her to make me change.
She nods. âKnew youâd grow to love this house.â
âOh yeah, Mum. Once in a lifetime dream.â
Then before she can start the argument I dodge her and disappear. As much as I donât want to feel any sort of attachment to this house, I strangely do, but Iâm not admitting that to an adult anytime soon, and particularly not to her.
In the end Dad drags my bed in pieces up the stairs. I canât believe heâs so strong. He lifts the slats and the sides and heaves them onto his shoulders, like heâs carrying nothing heavier than paper. I like him being this big. Heâs never been one of those dads who look like they might blow away if someone bad confronted them. Heâs a sort of fairytale dad with a massive body that could protect a princess from a dragon. And in only five minutes my bed has moved from a box in a truck up a flight of stairs to the middle of my new room. He even pulls out some little screwdriver thing and puts it together while Iâm still watching.
âYou can do the sheets, Lil.â
âYeah, cheers.â
âWell, youâve done nothing else all day.â He grins at me then. He loves giving me a hard time. Always has done. He jokes around more than any dad Iâve ever met and sometimes itâs even funny. I really want him to leave, though, so I can see how the room feels now. I want to see if itâs still creepy, if the things I think I know are real. But heâs fussing around and doesnât look like he wants to go anywhere.
âShouldnât you go and help Mum?â
âProbably.â
âThanks, Dad.â
âRighto.â
And finally he goes. Iâm alone in this huge room that could be anywhere in the world and doesnât feel like any room Iâve ever been in. My bed fits under the window so the sun can come in and shine on my feet first thing in the morning and I can look up and see the stars before I go to sleep. I canât put up bookshelves, wardrobes, or my desk, so all my books will have to stay in piles around the edges of the room and my clothes will just spew out of suitcases. It feels like I could leave at any minute. If everything had a place then it would feel final, like we were staying forever and thatâs too depressing.
But the best thing about being up here is that the rest of the familyâs down below. I can hear them banging around and moving things and even muffled words being spoken,
Sherryl Woods
Susan Klaus
Madelynne Ellis
Molly Bryant
Lisa Wingate
Holly Rayner
Mary Costello
Tianna Xander
James Lawless
Simon Scarrow