student I think.â
My radar beeped.
âShe was . . . gutted. Whatâs the word? . . . eviscerated.â
He looked as if he was going to throw up, rallied, shouted at the bar guy,
âCouple of Jamesons, make them large.â
He wiped his brow, said,
âI tell you, Jack, like yer ownself, Iâve seen some ugly shit. You learn to shut off, like the nine-yard stare. Youâre watching but youâre not seeing. Jesus!â
Iâm an Irish guy, we donât do the tactile. Keep your friggin hands to yourself. Whoa, yeah, and your emotions, too. Keep those suckers, as they said in Seinfeld ,
âin the vault.â
But I reached over, gently touched his shoulder.
âThe last bit, Jack, fuck, the final touch . . .â
It didnât register. He downed the Jay, let that baby weave its wicked magic, shuddered, then,
âA six-inch nail was hammered between her eyes.â
I thought,
. . . Nailed!
I spotted an East European guy across the bar. We had business in the past,
Heavy,
Risky
Business.
I indicated a meet with my right hand and he nodded. I said to Owen,
âI need a minute.â
In mid-narrative, he was jolted back to where we actually were, protested,
âBut there is something else, Jack.â
There was always something else and neverâeverâgood.
âOne second,â
I said.
In the small smokerâs shed at the back, he was waiting, sucking fiercely on one of the cheap Russian cigarettes currently flooding the city. He shook my hand, said,
âJack, my friend, you need some merchandise?â
Over the years, that had mainly been muscle and dope.
I made the universal sign of my thumb, trigger hammer coming down. He booted the cigarette, took out his mobile, spat some foreign command in a harsh tone, grimaced, clicked off, asked,
âA Ruger, is OK?â
âSure.â
âOne box of shells?â
âPerfect.â
No money exchanged. That would be later, on delivery.
Got back to Owen. He was literally wringing his hands, went,
âJesus, times like this, I wish I still smoked. You gave up, didnât you, Jack?â
For an alarming moment I thought he meant it literally, like on life, but focused, shrugged, said,
âNope, still smoking.â
He cracked a smile at that, saidâquoted a line from Charley Varrick ,
âLast of the Independents.â
Even Walter Matthau was dead, and recently the great Elmore Leonard. Deferring the final piece of Owenâs story, I told him how Leonardâs son called around to visit, saw his wife up on the roof clearing the eaves, asked his dad why she was up there. Elmore said,
âBecause she canât write books.â
Enough with the stalling, I pushed,
âYou had something else, Owen?â
Owen said,
âThe American kid you were friendly with?â
Jesus, how long was he going to stretch it? I grilled,
âYeah?â
âTheyâve arrested him for the girlâs murder. As the Brits say, âtheyâve got him bang to rights.ââ
I really believed I had lost the capacity to be shocked. The life Iâd lived, I could no longer really tell the difference between a shock and a surprise. Like Owenâs Brits . . . I was flabbergasted, asked,
âHow, I mean . . . ?â
He caught my confusion, cut past it, said bluntly,
âBloodied underwear was found under his mattress. Sick little fuck.â
I finished my Jameson, hoping to blast the bile in my mouth, the acid in my gut, said,
âHe didnât do it.â
For a moment it seemed as if Owen would punch me on the shoulder, swerved, settled for,
âCome on, Jack, you liked the kid but, letâs face it, you obviously had no idea who he was or what he was capable of.â
I stared straight at Owenâs eyes. Whatever he saw there, he flinched. I said,
âYou know history, buddy. Iâve looked into the faces of
Rapists,
Psychos,
Stone
Michael Palmer
Louisa Bacio
Belinda Burns
Laura Taylor
Alexandra Ivy, Laura Wright
Marilu Mann
Dave Freer
Brian Kayser
Suzanne Lazear
Sam Brower