that’s totally alien to you. I know it’s difficult for you. I will always regret the manner in which it happened.”
She broke down sobbing in his arms. “He was so sad,” she said. “He wanted his mom. How long was he like that, missing his mom and wondering where she’d gone? Alone? I can’t quit thinking about that. How many others are out there like that?”
“It’s not your concern, sweetheart. Don’t worry yourself about it.”
“My parents. One day they’re going to die. I’m going to outlive them. I can’t quit thinking about what if they get stuck like that? How horrible is that?”
Ryan hoped she couldn’t sense his thoughts, that the day would unfortunately come even sooner than she thought for her father. “I could sit here and spout pithy platitudes to you, but I respect you far too much to do that. You have a hopefully long and wonderful life ahead of you with a man who loves you more than his very own life. You are already ahead of the game, as it were. I’m not saying you shouldn’t think these thoughts, but you have a wedding to plan. A life to live. Children—” His voice choked up a little at the last and he forcibly shoved that memory back into its dungeon.
That was the last thing he needed to think about right now.
He cleared his throat and tried again. “Kal, let life happen for you. Enjoy it as it does. There will be good and bad times. There are in any life, whether human or immortal. Some times better than others, definitely.”
“Could you find her?” she asked. “Could you be with her again?”
He sighed. “There is far more involved than simply finding her. When a soul is reborn, it becomes a unique individual. Even though residual memories and feelings remain, they are deep within the person and there they should stay. It would drive a person mad to have their old selves brought to the surface for too long. I know it’s done frequently with hypnosis, but they cannot stay for long, in control of the physical vessel.”
After he was quiet for a long moment, Kal said, “And you don’t know if she’d want you in this life anyway.”
“There is that. It’s best I don’t know.” He kissed Kal’s forehead and patted her on the back before stepping away. “Just because I have a lot of power doesn’t mean I should try to force the Universe to my will in an unnatural way.” He gently touched her chin. “If it’s ever meant to be, it will happen. I’ve found her twice before. Who’s to say I won’t get lucky the third time?”
“You didn’t come when I called. You promised me you always would.”
“I knew you were all right. I was still watching you. Just because you didn’t see me doesn’t mean I wasn’t protecting and looking over you. I felt it best to let things settle before anything else was said.”
“Are we okay?”
Finally, a smile. “We are always ‘okay,’ Kal. I promise you, I shall never walk away from you. Ever . I will always be around if you need me. Even the best of friends sometimes have squabbles. Believe me, I do not hold it against you or take it personally.”
“Thank you.” She stepped in for one more hug. “I guess I should go.”
“Right. Close your eyes, sweetheart.” She did. She felt him press one last kiss to the top of her head before he sent her back to the cemetery.
Aidan sat by the marker, shredding a blade of grass in his long fingers while waiting for her. “You okay, kiddo?”
She wiped her face as she nodded and sat next to him, cuddled with him.
He wrapped his arms around her. “Sweet cheeks, I know this is a mind fuck. I should have warned you a little better about that, I guess.”
She shook her head and cuddled closer.
“Why did you need me to take you to Ryan?” he asked. “Why didn’t you call him?”
“We had a fight. I said some pretty mean things to him.”
He laughed, long and hearty.
“It’s not funny,” she angrily said, still ashamed of herself and what she’d
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