worried about ghosts. The outfit Ellie and I picked out last night looks fab, and my hair is cooperating perfectly. By the time Iâm done getting ready, Iâm starting to feel a little more calm, and I bound downstairs. I say good morning to my dad, then pour myself a huge bowl of cereal. Iâm going to need my energy if Iâm going to get through the excitement of the day.
âYou look nice,â my dad says.
âThanks.â
âThis wouldnât have anything to do with that boy I saw you at the mall with, would it?â
âNo,â I lie. Talk about awkward. How am I supposed to tell my dad that I like Brandon? Or that I like any boys at all? Ohmigod. I just realized something. How am I going to tell my dad that Iâm going out on a date if Brandon does ask me? I mean, my dad has never really said I couldnât date, but maybe thatâs because he assumes that I already know I canât. But since he never said I couldnât . . . Wow, this is confusing. And humiliating. Oh, well. Iâm not going to miss hanging out with Brandon just because of a potentially awkward conversation with my dad. I take a deep breath and decide to just go for it.
âSo, Dad,â I say, trying to sound all nonchalant. âIf my outfit did, you know, hypothetically , have something to do with the boy you saw me with the other day, how would you feel about that?â This is something Iâve learned workswith my dad. If I ask him how he feels about something, itâs different than asking him for permission. It opens up a dialogue instead of setting him up as the authority figure. Itâs actually a very mature thing to do.
âWell,â my dad says. Heâs cracking eggs into a bowl so that he can make his morning omelette. My dad has a western omelette every morning. Heâs supposed to only have egg whites, but sometimes he lets a little bit of yolk slip in. âI suppose I would want to know exactly whatâs going on with you and this boy.â
Donât we all, I think. âWeeelll, what if he was maybe going to ask me to hang out?â I ask. âCould I hang out with him?â âHang outâ sounds way less intimidating than âdate.â Even though, of course, thatâs what it would be. Wouldnât it? Is it possible Brandonâs just going to ask me to hang out because he wants to be friends? That would be horrible, and so I push it out of my mind, right into some mental âignoreâ folder, like where I decided to put that woman ghost from last night.
âLike a date?â my dad asks. Heâs frowning suspiciously into the frying pan.
âOr maybe, like, a group thing, or a study session or something.â
My dad hesitates. And then, finally, he says, âI guess that would be okay.â
Daniella appears beside me and rolls her eyes. âGod,your dad is, like, sooo overprotective. I was going out on dates all the time when I was thirteen.â She thinks about it. âOf course, I was getting asked out constantly, so it made sense.â Ugh.
âThanks, Dad,â I say, deciding to ignore Daniellaâs comment. Today is going to be great, I tell myself. Then I grab my bag and head out the door to catch the bus, Daniella trailing along behind me.
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Okay. I really need to calm down. I mean, thereâs no reason to get all riled up just because Brandon might ask me to hang out. I donât even know if itâs going to happen for sure. Kyle is definitely not the best source of information. He probably forgets things, or messes things up all the time. Especially important things like who his best friend is going to ask to hang out.
Still. I canât help getting butterflies in my stomach about it, and all morning I keep my eyes peeled for Brandon. When I pass him in the hall after third period, he says, âHi,â and I feel my insides melt. But he
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