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their violet eyes.
    And I am there also. “Albino Olympia,” viewed from the side to display my hump, bald nobbly head tilted charmingly, curtsying with one arm pointing at the glorious Chick and his miraculous burden. Chick was six and I was twelve but he loomed a full head taller. The arched banner across the top in joyous glitter, “The Fabulous Binewskis.”
    The wallet-sized school picture from Mirandas senior year shows her face the same size as the Binewski poster faces. I slide the photo around, next to Chick, to Arty, to Papa Al. It is Arty she looks like. Those Binewski cheekbones and the Mongol eyes. Would she see it?
     
     

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BOOK II
     
     
    Your Dragon—
    Care, Feeding, and
    Identifying Fewmets
     
     
     

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    4
     
    Papa 's Roses
     
    The Olympia McGurk profile in the personnel computer of Radio KBNK lists my training as “Elocution and diction, and micro-phonic presentation as taught by Aloysius Binewski,” which I wrote calmly and confidently into my résumé as though every well-trained voice would recognize the name of the master.
    That was Papa, sitting in the back of the tent at the soundboard, wearing headphones and glaring at me as I stood on one foot on the stage with the old ragged microphone waving aimlessly near my mouth. Papa, hollering, “Boring!” at my fiftieth delivery of “Step right this way, folks!” or mimicking cruelly, “Ya-ta, ya-ta, ya-ta!” if I fell into a repetitive rhythm on “From the darkest mysteries of science, a revelation of poetic grace.”
    “Move your lips, for shits sake!” howled Papa, or "Stop with the mouse farts and project!
    “That's a double-reed instrument! It is called a voice! It is not a comb wrapped in waxed paper! I gave it to you from the love in my guts for your scrawny and unmarketable carcass, so be kind enough to use it properly!”
    And me all the while having to pee -- coughing into the mike when my throat was tired and raw -- eyes stinging and lips and chin crumpling in grief at his anger. The sweet tinkle of Electra on the bass and Iphy on the treble with Mama's voice counting, “One and two and ... ” as the twins had their piano lesson inside the trailer. The gurgle and hum of the pumps that filtered my brother Arty's “Aqua Boy” tank. And the dim round moon of baby Fortunato's face peering at me from the dark of the risers above Papa.
    If I finally did it right and got all the way through from “Step up, friends” to “A vision of the miraculous extravagance of Nature for the same simple price as an overcooked hotdog” without a single bellow of rage from my beloved papa, then he would swoop me up in huge arms and tuck me onto a shoulder, where I could grab his astounding hair in my fists and ride high through the tent flaps into the light, with Fortunato's golden head chugging along far below, and we would parade the long street of booths with me laughing down at the red-haired girls who sold the candy and at the toothless wheelman and Horst the Cat Man all nodding at Papa's instructions, and hearing, feeling his huge voice rumble out from beneath my legs, “This little beetle did her lessons just right today.”
     
    It's funny, in a dingy way, that I make my little living by reading. I have to smile because I used to avoid reading. It scared me.
    It never bothered Arty. He read constantly -- anything -- but his favorites were ghost stories and horror tales.
    When we were still children I was the one who turned his pages. He'd lie in bed reading late when everyone else was asleep. I lay beside him and held his lamp and turned the pages and watched his eyes move in quick jerks down the print. Reading was never a quiet pastime for Arty. He rocked, grunted, muttered, and exclaimed. He was in one of his toilet phases at that time. “Sweet rosy-brown arsehole” was his expression of pleasure. “Shitsucker” was the pejorative.
    “Don't you get dreams?” I asked him. “Don't you get scared reading

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