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was dark outside, and as I shook my head I realized it was just a dream.
    And not just any dream—my underwear was soaked. I’d had a wet dream.
    I swung my legs out of the bed and pulled my underwear off, carrying it to the washer in the laundry room and tossing it inside.
    I hadn’t had a wet dream in years.
    I walked into the bathroom and turned the spigot on.
    This isn’t good, I told myself as I stared at myself in the mirror. When the water was hot, I soaked a washcloth and cleaned myself up. I hate being a virgin.
    I was probably the only virgin on campus. Just like St. Bernard.
    You’re fooling yourself if you think Chad is going to be interested in you, a voice mocked me inside my head. It sounded like Guy deMontespan. Take a good look at yourself in that mirror. You’re dumpy and you’re ugly. Chad is beautiful. Beautiful guys are only interested in other beautiful guys, and you are far from that. You aren’t even remotely close. All you are to him is just another pledge he won’t notice, he won’t pay any attention to. You know you don’t have a chance with him—he doesn’t even know you exist, and even if he did, he’d never want you. Not now, not tomorrow, not ever in a million years. You know it. Guys like Chad go for other guys like Chad—you know, like Blair and Jeff? When have you ever seen a guy like that with a guy like you?
    Never, that’s when.
    â€œShut up,” I said out loud. “You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
    I walked back into the bedroom and put on another pair of underwear. I sat down on the bed. The voice was probably right, much as I hated to admit it.
    I was just fooling myself.
    We’d had our first pledge meeting the night before. I had been the first to arrive, and Pledge Marshal Eric had directed me to a room he called the Chapter Room. It was just off the foyer, and as I sat down on a couch I looked around. The walls were covered with photographs and paddles. Eric had left me alone in the Chapter Room. I could hear the television in the main room—some of the brothers were watching an NFL game. As my other pledge brothers had started arriving, it soon became painfully apparent that I was the ugliest guy in our pledge class. Well, maybe ugliest was too harsh, but I was certainly the least attractive out of all of them. There had been ten of them, and every last one of them looked like he’d been an athlete or a jock in high school. Even the ones who seemed to be out of shape had big, muscular arms. I’d sat there, nodding when someone said hello, wondering what I’d been thinking, joining a fraternity. I wouldn’t have anything in common with any of these guys. They weren’t going to like me. I’d been crazy to think so.
    I’d kept watching, hoping someone would sit down next to me and start talking. No one did. Some of them seemed to already know each other and were joking and laughing. No one acknowledged me other than with a nod. No one said hello, no one introduced themselves to me, nothing. I remembered seeing them at Rush, but for the life of me couldn’t remember their names.
    This was going to be a complete and utter disaster.
    You can always depledge, that horrible voice had whispered inside my head, but I ignored it.
    Relax already, I told myself. Give them a chance.
    I guess I’d been expecting too much from my pledge brothers. This was our first meeting of many to come, and we were all going to get to know each other. All the brothers had made a point of talking about the bond between pledge brothers—but bonds weren’t formed instantly; they had to be forged over a semester of working toward a common goal, and our common goal was initiation into Beta Kappa as full brothers.
    That was the most important thing. That was what I had to remember.
    I’d never wanted anything in my life as much as I wanted to be a brother.
    The night