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had been so desperately clinging onto him, was it because of love or just that? Desperation? John's always been there right from the start and I hadn't wanted that to change.
I had been afraid.
"So there's no hope for us?"
I shook my head. "We have to move on. Both of us."
"I'm not going to stay with Julia. I'm going to leave her."
"Then I hope you find someone who can make you happy, John. I really do wish that for you."
"This is so messed up," John laughed lightly. "I came here hoping that we could get back together but instead I've been replaced by my own little brother."
"I'm sorry."
John turned and faced me, still holding onto my hand. "So I guess this is it."
"Yeah." I smiled weakly. "I guess so."
"I really want to keep fighting for you," John said with a crooked smile, "but I can tell that it would be a wasted effort. You've already moved on."
"Yes."
John stared down at me longer before letting out a deep and tired sigh. "Well...okay."
I stared at our clasped hands. "I want us to still be friends."
"You're asking for a lot."
I looked up at him. "I know."
He sighed. "Give me time to get used to this. You and my brother...does it really have to be him?"
"I don't think I can live without him now."
"Damn." John smiled weakly. "I was afraid you'd say that." It looked like he too was close to tears but we were both stubborn so we held our tears in.
"But before I completely hand you over..." John lowered his head and pressed his lips against mine. Again my chest began to throb, that ache burning. I guess I'll always have this feeling around him.
It was bittersweet, just like this kiss.
John lifted his head up and stared at me. "Nothing?"
I laughed shakily. "No," I lied.
"Damn." He grinned, but it looked as shaky as my laugh. "Can't blame a guy for trying, right?"
John backed away from me and turned. I watched him walk to my door and slipped his shoes back on. "I can't say I approve of your relationship with Cedric," he was saying, "but if he makes you happy I'll keep my mouth shut about your relationship."
He straightened and looked back at me. "If you really love him, you should tell him about what happened in the past before he finds out himself."
I nodded. "I know." But it was a chapter in my life that I didn't want to re-live. I've forced myself all these years to not even think about it.
John opened the door but paused. Again he looked at me, looking torn. "Kai..."
I swallowed. "Yes?"
"I'm sorry that I couldn't be what you really needed." He left and closed the door behind him before I could even reply.
I stared at the closed door, wondering if I had made the right decision of letting him go. Then Cedric's face floated in my mind and I knew that I had made the right decision. John and I were the past. And hopefully, Cedric will be my present and future.
But still...
"I'm sorry too, John," I said aloud, saying the words he probably wouldn't have wanted to hear. He had left too fast to hear them. I'm sorry too because maybe, just maybe he could have been the one...if there was no Cedric.
I sat on the couch and continued to stare at the door. Finally, after a few more minutes, finally, I let the tears fall.
***
" I want you to know, you couldn't have loved me better, but I want you to move on so I'm already gone. You can't make it feel right, when you know that it's wrong "- Kelly Clarkson
Chapter Nine
+Cedric+
That was a really fucked up thing for you to do," Kara said as soon as Miranda rushed out the car, slamming the door close in her wake.
Through out the entire car ride, my two usually chatty friends were unusually silent. Well, their mouths were silent but the atmosphere and the way their eyes drilled holes into me spoke volumes.
I sighed. But here it comes, now that Miranda was out the car and dashing into her home, Kara will finally say what she's kept bottled up. I wonder what Kai is doing with my brother now...
"You bastard," Kara snarled viciously on the seat beside
I had been afraid.
"So there's no hope for us?"
I shook my head. "We have to move on. Both of us."
"I'm not going to stay with Julia. I'm going to leave her."
"Then I hope you find someone who can make you happy, John. I really do wish that for you."
"This is so messed up," John laughed lightly. "I came here hoping that we could get back together but instead I've been replaced by my own little brother."
"I'm sorry."
John turned and faced me, still holding onto my hand. "So I guess this is it."
"Yeah." I smiled weakly. "I guess so."
"I really want to keep fighting for you," John said with a crooked smile, "but I can tell that it would be a wasted effort. You've already moved on."
"Yes."
John stared down at me longer before letting out a deep and tired sigh. "Well...okay."
I stared at our clasped hands. "I want us to still be friends."
"You're asking for a lot."
I looked up at him. "I know."
He sighed. "Give me time to get used to this. You and my brother...does it really have to be him?"
"I don't think I can live without him now."
"Damn." John smiled weakly. "I was afraid you'd say that." It looked like he too was close to tears but we were both stubborn so we held our tears in.
"But before I completely hand you over..." John lowered his head and pressed his lips against mine. Again my chest began to throb, that ache burning. I guess I'll always have this feeling around him.
It was bittersweet, just like this kiss.
John lifted his head up and stared at me. "Nothing?"
I laughed shakily. "No," I lied.
"Damn." He grinned, but it looked as shaky as my laugh. "Can't blame a guy for trying, right?"
John backed away from me and turned. I watched him walk to my door and slipped his shoes back on. "I can't say I approve of your relationship with Cedric," he was saying, "but if he makes you happy I'll keep my mouth shut about your relationship."
He straightened and looked back at me. "If you really love him, you should tell him about what happened in the past before he finds out himself."
I nodded. "I know." But it was a chapter in my life that I didn't want to re-live. I've forced myself all these years to not even think about it.
John opened the door but paused. Again he looked at me, looking torn. "Kai..."
I swallowed. "Yes?"
"I'm sorry that I couldn't be what you really needed." He left and closed the door behind him before I could even reply.
I stared at the closed door, wondering if I had made the right decision of letting him go. Then Cedric's face floated in my mind and I knew that I had made the right decision. John and I were the past. And hopefully, Cedric will be my present and future.
But still...
"I'm sorry too, John," I said aloud, saying the words he probably wouldn't have wanted to hear. He had left too fast to hear them. I'm sorry too because maybe, just maybe he could have been the one...if there was no Cedric.
I sat on the couch and continued to stare at the door. Finally, after a few more minutes, finally, I let the tears fall.
***
" I want you to know, you couldn't have loved me better, but I want you to move on so I'm already gone. You can't make it feel right, when you know that it's wrong "- Kelly Clarkson
Chapter Nine
+Cedric+
That was a really fucked up thing for you to do," Kara said as soon as Miranda rushed out the car, slamming the door close in her wake.
Through out the entire car ride, my two usually chatty friends were unusually silent. Well, their mouths were silent but the atmosphere and the way their eyes drilled holes into me spoke volumes.
I sighed. But here it comes, now that Miranda was out the car and dashing into her home, Kara will finally say what she's kept bottled up. I wonder what Kai is doing with my brother now...
"You bastard," Kara snarled viciously on the seat beside
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