himself, at her, she had no idea really, but she found herself staring up at him, torn between marveling at the ease with which he showed his emotions and laughing back because the sound of his genuine amusement was contagious. âHappy to amuse you.â
âIâm sorry.â Still smiling, he sighed. âAh, hell, that felt good. Laughing.â
âLaughing at me felt good.â
âOh, no.â Gently, he tugged on her ponytail. âDefinitely laughing with you, I promise. And I should be resisting, too. But I canât seem to do that.â
His words caused more of those interesting shivers down her spine, and to other places, as well, secret places that wanted reactivating. Standing there in the hallway, way too close to this sexy man, a smile wanting to split her face, laughter spilling in her gut, she realized something.
Whether sheâd meant to or not, sheâd made roots here, temporary ones, but roots she would treasure and remember always. And now she wanted to strip naked and let him do things to her, lots of things, things that would create more lasting memories that she could take with her. âSo how often, when you give that look to a woman, when you talk to her in that low, sexy voice, when you touch her, do her clothes just fall off?â
When he opened his mouth, she shook her head. âNo, you know what? Iâm sorry. Donât answer that. Because I was on board for that. The clothes-falling-off thing. Butâ¦â
âButâ¦?â
âBut Iâm not mixing business and pleasure, no matter how sexy you are. I canât, much as I want to. I just canât, not for anything less than a meaningful, lasting relationship, a real connection.â
Her own words shocked her but she found she meant them. To the bone. Being in her grandmotherâs house had obviously sent that yearning within her rising to the surface, and she couldnât help it. âI mean it. Iâm sorry if I let you think otherwise, but I really do.â
Looking torn between bafflement and disappointment, he nodded. âOkay.â
âIâm sorry if I led you on. If it helps, I led myself on, too. I hope weâre still friends.â All that was left to do was walk away gracefully, when in her heart of hearts she didnât want to walk away at all. She started with one step, a baby step, and then another. âI also hope that the rest of your shift goes well,â she managed.
âThank you. Thatâsâ¦friendly of you.â
Was he was mocking her? âWell,â she said primly, backing to the door. âJust because weâre not going toâ¦â
âMix business and pleasure,â he supplied helpfully.
âYes.â Because obviously he was not looking for a deep or meaningful relationship, or heâd have said so. âIt doesnât mean that we canât get along.â
âI think,â he said slowly, in a tone she couldnât quite place, âthat weâre not going to have a problem in that department.â
No. No, they werenât.
She nodded, and managed to turn and leave, but in the hallway, alone, she leaned back against a wall and let out a long breath. There. That hadnât been hard or awkward.
Ah, hell. Itâd been plenty of both.
But sheâd done the right thing. Now she wouldnât fall for him and mourn him after she left. Yep, definitely the right thing.
Damn it. Why couldnât she have gotten all self-protective after sheâd gotten to see him naked? Brooke turned around to look at the closed kitchen door, nearly going back in, but she restrained herself.
The right thing.
6
S EVERAL SHIFTS LATER , Brooke was sitting outside the fire station on a rare break, laptop open, flipping through a national job database to see where she might go after the house sold and this job ended in a few weeks.
The warm sun beat down on her, the waves across the street providing the