I want him to be happy so I need to be able to let him go if that is what makes him happy. Ugh, I am so screwed.
As he walks in , I can see improvement in his demeanor. He gives me that charming lopsided smile and my heart melts.
“Here you go.” He hands me a glass of water and I take a big gulp. I am a bit dehydrated from all of my waterworks earlier.
Sitting silently with him in the dark I finally get enough courage to ask him the question, “Who is Lily and what happened to her?”
He snuggles with me in bed and breathes out a big sigh. “I think that this conversation is for another day. Tonight has been tough for you and I don’t want to burden you with my problems. We will talk about Lily and your Aunt Patti tomorrow. Let’s just get some sleep sweetheart.”
I don’t argue with him. Tonight has been a huge milestone for us. I enjoy his arms wrapped around me and savor the moment before I drift back off into sleep.
I wake to the smell of coffee and I find myself smiling from head to toe. This is really happening. I am really here with James.
Slipping out of bed I walk into the bathroom to quickly assess my appearance. I have never stayed over with someone and I know what I look like in the morning. It is not always pretty.
Oh dear, my hair is a rats nest like usual. Brushing it out can take awhile so I inspect my face for smeared mascara. I pretty much cried it all off last night so I am good there. I quickly brush my teeth. Feeling a little bit better about how I look, I walk into the kitchen to find James cooking breakfast in his boxers. Damn, he is hot!
“Good morning beautiful, want some coffee?” James asks with a twinkle.
“Yes, I would love some. Thanks.” Walking over to him, I wrap my arms around him and enjoy his warm skin with a lo ng embrace. I am still a little sleepy and I want to snuggle all morning.
“Oh , Eva, you feel so good. How did you sleep?”
He passes me a big mug of coffee and sip it slowly as the cobwebs clear from my foggy brain.
“Hmmm?”
“Hey sleepyhead, are you awake yet?” Giving me a kiss on the cheek he laughs and I register what he has just said.
“Yes, I slept great. Better than I have in years. Did you have any more nightmares?”
“No. I slept great.” He gives me a half-hearted grin and my heart breaks for him. We both have our demons to deal with.
My stomach is growling and I try and cover it up with my hand. Like that will help, Eva!
“Ahhh...someone is hungry. I am making waffles and bacon.” He motions for me to sit at the table by the large windows overlooking the city.
It is a sunny morning with blue skies and I can see Mount Hood and Mount St. Helens. It is so rare to have sunny skies in winter. It usually rains all winter long and , when the sun comes out, Portlanders act like its summer, regardless of the temperature.
“What time is it , James? If it is sunny outside already it must be about 8:30 am.”
“It is actually is 10 am, sweetheart. I couldn’t bear to wake you.”
Cupping my face in his hands he gives me a delicate kiss and sparks fly through my body. Geez, just a little kiss and I am ready to go again. He sets down the plate in front of me with a glass of orange juice.
“This looks wonderful . I am starving.” I dive into the waffle and dip a big bite into warm maple syrup. “Mmm. This is so good.” Trying to mind my manners, I wait until I almost finish my bite before I talk. The bacon is crunchy and salty and the contrast to the sweet maple is divine.
“You are so s weet to make me breakfast! It’s my favorite meal of the day.” Grinning ear to ear, I take a sip of the juice. It is a rare thing to get breakfast like this when you live at the Parish.
We eat together in a comfortable silence and I feel so at home with him. The fact that we have only known each other for two days is incredible. I have