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to Ganny Wilson this morning—if you want, you can stay with her until I get back.”
    Missy brightened. “Peachy keen. I love Ganny.”
    “And Ganny loves you, too. But she’s pretty old, you know.” At least eighty by now. “You’re gonna have to be good, not give her any trouble.”
    “No mischief,” Missy promised solemnly. But inside, she was giggling. Ganny Wilson didn’t care about mischief, only matches.
    “Just so long as you don’t burn the house down, Princess,” she used to say. “Everything else, Ganny can fix.”
     
    Two hours later, after helping Missy pack her pink valise and dropping her—and Tweety—off at Ganny Wilson’s little cottage in the West Berkeley flats, Simon had to upwardly revise his estimate of their former housekeeper’s age: the doddering old black woman looked to be closer to ninety.
    It was worrisome, no denying that—sometimes Missy could be a handful, even for a caretaker in her prime—but as the Mercedes rolled across the Bay Bridge, top down, radio blasting Vivaldi’s ubiquitous Four Seasons from all eight speakers, Simon reminded himself that Dorie hadn’t left him much choice. He had to get to her before she talked to the FBI—or to anybody else, for that matter.
    At the thought of Dorie, Simon’s pulse quickened again for the first time since Wayne Summers’s death. Ever since their first meeting at the convention, he had been so looking forward to playing the fear game with her—saving the best for last, so to speak. Would it be better, he wondered, to buy several masks at one store, or one mask at several stores? And if so, where?
    He was still mulling that one over when the classical station cut to a commercial. Simon pushed the seek button, heard Tab Hunter crooning about young love, first love on the oldies station, and quickly punched seek again. He didn’t want to hear anybody romanticizing about young love, because his first affair, with Nervous Nellie Carpenter, had resulted in the worst beating of his life.
    On the other hand, if it hadn’t been for his involvement with Nellie, Simon might never have discovered his life’s path, his obsession, the only sure cure for the blind rat, and, except for Missy, his only reason for living, so perhaps old Tab wasn’t so far off after all.

4

    Ed Pender was not a religious man, but the feeling of awe and wonder that overtook him as he stepped up to the eighteenth tee at Pebble Beach was nearly overwhelming. The deep green of the fair-way, the roundness and whiteness of the ball, the orange sun poised at the edge of Carmel Bay—it was a moment of perfection in an imperfect world.
    And Pender, jet-lagged, two months shy of fifty-six years old, fifty pounds overweight, and twenty-three strokes over par up to that point, was Jack, was Arnie, was Tiger, facing one of the greatest character tests in the wide world of golf. Play it safe, lay up right, take a makeable bogey, shoot a hundred. Or take a chance—a big chance, with his tired legs and duck hook—blast it over the water, go for the par, break a hundred.
    He had to go for it, of course. Just don’t hook, he ordered the ball as he went into his backswing. Don’t hook, don’t hook, don’t—
    Whack, quack, splash.
    “Take a mulligan, kid,” urged Sid, who was far enough ahead to be magnanimous. “Nobody has to know.”
    “I’d know,” said Pender, as his caddy sadly handed him a new ball—he’d placed a side bet on the bigger, younger guy with his fellow caddy.
     
    Dorie Bell—who despised golf in general and the exclusionary, land-grabbing, prodevelopment, water-wasting bastards at Pebble Beach in particular—was putting the last touches on her painting of the sunset around the time Pender was hooking his drive at eighteen into it.
    She worked with her palette in her lap, brush in her left hand, cloth in her right hand, and a stout walking stick leaning against her easel, with which to keep the dogs away. It wasn’t the best sunset