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Authors: N. L. Echeverria
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You guys went hiking? How come I wasn’t invited?”
With all her questions, I just sigh and give a half-hearted smile showing I don’t have the strength to keep anything from her and realize I might as well give in now. She won’t stop the battering until she knows all. “I didn’t think to call you, Kim. It was sort of a last minute thing, and Derrick was available to go. I just wanted a day out. Do you want some tea or something? I was just going to get myself some.” I don’t really want to have to explain my feelings for Ethan or Derrick. I’m still confused about what’s going on and I would probably just confuse Kim as well. She’ll probably think I’m crazy for being infatuated with either one of them, and I really don’t want to hear it right now. I can’t help my feelings and if I feel the way I do then it must be right or at least mean something.
“Sure, I’ll take some tea, but don’t try to avoid my questions. I know we haven’t been friends long, but I know when something’s going on with you. You tend to avoid people, which probably explains why you’re sitting here in this empty house just reading a book on such a beautiful day. So go ahead and make some tea, but then you have got to start talking girl!”
Kim is always so persistent when it comes to gossip. She always wants to know what’s going on. I’ve never really experienced her tendencies first hand, but I always watch her get people to spill their guts to her about their problems or relationship troubles and then she always endeavors to make them feel better. I don’t know what it is that always makes her so interested in other people’s problems, but it’s like she always has to be the one to fix them. I know she has good intentions. I’m just not in the mood right now to open up to her about everything. I don’t even have a clue about what’s going on. I want to figure things out for myself without having the opinion of someone else clouding my thoughts. I just have to be vague with what I tell her but I know she isn’t going to let me off without giving her something juicy. Once the water’s almost at a boil, I drop the tea bags into two cups and then pour the water in. After the tea sits for three minutes, I add some honey. We don’t say a word.
All I can think about is what I’m going to tell her. I don’t know what to say. That I love some stranger and that I desire Derrick at the same time. That I have no clue where all these intense emotions are coming from? That I’m insane and have no control over my sex drive when I’m around either one of them? There’s no way I can say that to her. She would think I was crazy. I do hate keeping this all to myself though. If I did share it with her, maybe she could help me understand my feelings and maybe even reassure me that everything will be fine and I’m not crazy. She does want to help. While sipping our tea I try to gather my thoughts but I’m having a hard time with what I should say and where I should start.
“So Lindsay, go ahead and start giving me the details. I need to know what’s going on with Ethan and you and what happened yesterday.”
I look over at her and I see that she’s waiting patiently. “Well, I’m not sure what’s going on with Ethan. This might sound crazy, but when I’m around him, Kim, I feel like everything else disappears. He’s all I can see, feel and smell. I know it’s insane, but I can’t help it. I don’t know anything about him. I don’t know where he comes from or who his family is and most importantly I don’t know who he is. Even though I don’t know him well enough, I still can’t help but want him every time I’m near him. Please don’t say anything to anyone, but I almost feel like our souls belong together. I ache for him when he’s not around, and when he is around I don’t want to let him go. I dream
With all her questions, I just sigh and give a half-hearted smile showing I don’t have the strength to keep anything from her and realize I might as well give in now. She won’t stop the battering until she knows all. “I didn’t think to call you, Kim. It was sort of a last minute thing, and Derrick was available to go. I just wanted a day out. Do you want some tea or something? I was just going to get myself some.” I don’t really want to have to explain my feelings for Ethan or Derrick. I’m still confused about what’s going on and I would probably just confuse Kim as well. She’ll probably think I’m crazy for being infatuated with either one of them, and I really don’t want to hear it right now. I can’t help my feelings and if I feel the way I do then it must be right or at least mean something.
“Sure, I’ll take some tea, but don’t try to avoid my questions. I know we haven’t been friends long, but I know when something’s going on with you. You tend to avoid people, which probably explains why you’re sitting here in this empty house just reading a book on such a beautiful day. So go ahead and make some tea, but then you have got to start talking girl!”
Kim is always so persistent when it comes to gossip. She always wants to know what’s going on. I’ve never really experienced her tendencies first hand, but I always watch her get people to spill their guts to her about their problems or relationship troubles and then she always endeavors to make them feel better. I don’t know what it is that always makes her so interested in other people’s problems, but it’s like she always has to be the one to fix them. I know she has good intentions. I’m just not in the mood right now to open up to her about everything. I don’t even have a clue about what’s going on. I want to figure things out for myself without having the opinion of someone else clouding my thoughts. I just have to be vague with what I tell her but I know she isn’t going to let me off without giving her something juicy. Once the water’s almost at a boil, I drop the tea bags into two cups and then pour the water in. After the tea sits for three minutes, I add some honey. We don’t say a word.
All I can think about is what I’m going to tell her. I don’t know what to say. That I love some stranger and that I desire Derrick at the same time. That I have no clue where all these intense emotions are coming from? That I’m insane and have no control over my sex drive when I’m around either one of them? There’s no way I can say that to her. She would think I was crazy. I do hate keeping this all to myself though. If I did share it with her, maybe she could help me understand my feelings and maybe even reassure me that everything will be fine and I’m not crazy. She does want to help. While sipping our tea I try to gather my thoughts but I’m having a hard time with what I should say and where I should start.
“So Lindsay, go ahead and start giving me the details. I need to know what’s going on with Ethan and you and what happened yesterday.”
I look over at her and I see that she’s waiting patiently. “Well, I’m not sure what’s going on with Ethan. This might sound crazy, but when I’m around him, Kim, I feel like everything else disappears. He’s all I can see, feel and smell. I know it’s insane, but I can’t help it. I don’t know anything about him. I don’t know where he comes from or who his family is and most importantly I don’t know who he is. Even though I don’t know him well enough, I still can’t help but want him every time I’m near him. Please don’t say anything to anyone, but I almost feel like our souls belong together. I ache for him when he’s not around, and when he is around I don’t want to let him go. I dream
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