to
you than that.” An uneasy feeling is building up inside, sensing I’m losing
control of the conversation. I was planning on pushing myself outside my
comfort zone but it seems my insightful Little Miss Contradiction would prefer
to drag me out instead. “Our physical attraction is obvious but—”
Her momentum falters as I hear the whisper of emotion
creeping into her words.
“But what?”
Knotting our fingers together, she stares at
our hands.
“—but this , what we’ve found, it’s more
than that. When our eyes lock—” She looks up at me again. “—they say so much
more than either of us ever manage to articulate. Without saying it, we both
already know how much we care about each other. So why are we overcomplicating
this?”
“Of course I care about you. This was never
meant to get complicated, remember? It was supposed to be a simple ‘no strings’
arrangement. Maybe I shouldn’t have invited you to stay, because then perhaps
we wouldn’t have gotten so close. Or maybe, it was inevitable. That’s how it
seems sometimes—between us—like it’s already been mapped out somehow.”
Beth smiles and I can tell by her face, that
she knows exactly what I mean.
“Jax, all I want right now is for you to remove
the imaginary barrier you’ve clamped down on us. You stripped away the barrier
I put up at the start, didn’t you? Remember, you said it was ‘psychological’
when I was worried I was so inexperienced that you’d completely annihilate me.”
She smiles, shaking her head at the memory. God, that seems like an age ago
now. “Well, we soon overcame that, which was stopping us from being together, so why can’t we
do that with yours?”
Hearing
her take the reins in this conversation is evidence enough as to how far we’ve
come. Plus she hasn’t hesitated or got flustered once. She’s confident and
determined. I brush her loose hair behind her ears and take hold of her beautiful
face.
“We can.”
“ What ?”
“I said
we—”
My ‘can’ gets
efficiently swallowed by her incredible mouth. We kiss at a slow and meaningful
pace. Christ, I will never tire of her mouth on me. She tastes of the fresh
orange juice that she’s been sipping this evening. As much as this girl turns
me on, I don’t feel the urge to run my hands and mouth all over her body—okay
so now I do—but this kiss tells me everything I need to know and
reassures me that whatever the fuck just happened, is the right decision.
I slowly
pull away and look into her huge hazelnut eyes.
“I’m not
making any promises Angel, or declarations of forever. But for me, it’d be
wrong to carry on pretending you’re the same as anybody else. You are special and I don’t want to ever give you reason to think otherwise. I’ve got a
lot of thinking to do about other parts of my life but in the meantime I want
us to just be able to go with the flow—”
“—without
having to look over our shoulders, wondering when our time’s up, feeling like
we’re living on borrowed time.”
“Exactly.
Beth, the chemistry between us—”
“—the crackle of energy when we’re near—”
“Yes. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever come close
to experiencing before. I’m drawn to you relentlessly. I miss you when you’re
not around and this home feels fulfilled when you’re here.”
“Wow. Just wow.” We study each other’s faces
for a while longer, adjusting to our new reality. “Well… as ever, I’m always
eager to please and to compromise when it comes to you G. So, how about I stick
around for a bit?”
“What do you mean?”
“Wills mom is moving in with her on Wednesday,
so I could relinquish my room and stay here for a bit, whilst you get back on
your feet properly. Say, ‘til the end of the week?”
“That sounds perfect, if you’re sure.”
She nods eagerly with a massive smile lighting
up her
you than that.” An uneasy feeling is building up inside, sensing I’m losing
control of the conversation. I was planning on pushing myself outside my
comfort zone but it seems my insightful Little Miss Contradiction would prefer
to drag me out instead. “Our physical attraction is obvious but—”
Her momentum falters as I hear the whisper of emotion
creeping into her words.
“But what?”
Knotting our fingers together, she stares at
our hands.
“—but this , what we’ve found, it’s more
than that. When our eyes lock—” She looks up at me again. “—they say so much
more than either of us ever manage to articulate. Without saying it, we both
already know how much we care about each other. So why are we overcomplicating
this?”
“Of course I care about you. This was never
meant to get complicated, remember? It was supposed to be a simple ‘no strings’
arrangement. Maybe I shouldn’t have invited you to stay, because then perhaps
we wouldn’t have gotten so close. Or maybe, it was inevitable. That’s how it
seems sometimes—between us—like it’s already been mapped out somehow.”
Beth smiles and I can tell by her face, that
she knows exactly what I mean.
“Jax, all I want right now is for you to remove
the imaginary barrier you’ve clamped down on us. You stripped away the barrier
I put up at the start, didn’t you? Remember, you said it was ‘psychological’
when I was worried I was so inexperienced that you’d completely annihilate me.”
She smiles, shaking her head at the memory. God, that seems like an age ago
now. “Well, we soon overcame that, which was stopping us from being together, so why can’t we
do that with yours?”
Hearing
her take the reins in this conversation is evidence enough as to how far we’ve
come. Plus she hasn’t hesitated or got flustered once. She’s confident and
determined. I brush her loose hair behind her ears and take hold of her beautiful
face.
“We can.”
“ What ?”
“I said
we—”
My ‘can’ gets
efficiently swallowed by her incredible mouth. We kiss at a slow and meaningful
pace. Christ, I will never tire of her mouth on me. She tastes of the fresh
orange juice that she’s been sipping this evening. As much as this girl turns
me on, I don’t feel the urge to run my hands and mouth all over her body—okay
so now I do—but this kiss tells me everything I need to know and
reassures me that whatever the fuck just happened, is the right decision.
I slowly
pull away and look into her huge hazelnut eyes.
“I’m not
making any promises Angel, or declarations of forever. But for me, it’d be
wrong to carry on pretending you’re the same as anybody else. You are special and I don’t want to ever give you reason to think otherwise. I’ve got a
lot of thinking to do about other parts of my life but in the meantime I want
us to just be able to go with the flow—”
“—without
having to look over our shoulders, wondering when our time’s up, feeling like
we’re living on borrowed time.”
“Exactly.
Beth, the chemistry between us—”
“—the crackle of energy when we’re near—”
“Yes. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever come close
to experiencing before. I’m drawn to you relentlessly. I miss you when you’re
not around and this home feels fulfilled when you’re here.”
“Wow. Just wow.” We study each other’s faces
for a while longer, adjusting to our new reality. “Well… as ever, I’m always
eager to please and to compromise when it comes to you G. So, how about I stick
around for a bit?”
“What do you mean?”
“Wills mom is moving in with her on Wednesday,
so I could relinquish my room and stay here for a bit, whilst you get back on
your feet properly. Say, ‘til the end of the week?”
“That sounds perfect, if you’re sure.”
She nods eagerly with a massive smile lighting
up her
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