Victoria would both start listening for the sound of the
helicopter. Victoria would be cooking a special dinner in the main
kitchen, not in her own house; later, Kenny would come to eat with
her in back. Takumi would be dressing as if for a date, because he got
to eat dinner with Asai at a candlelit table overlooking the sea.
The first time Asai came home, Takumi had been there about ten
days. He was dressed and ready an hour before Asai arrived. When he
heard the rotors, he went into the guest room to watch the helicopter
settle down on the landing pad a quarter mile behind the house. He
saw Asai scoot down and head for the path with his weekend bag as
the pilot took off again and turned south. His heart started beating
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faster and he stood back from the window, listening for the sounds of
Asai entering the house. When Takumi finally walked down the stairs,
looking the best that he could, his heart was thumping so hard that he
thought Asai must be able to hear it.
Asai stood in the entrance to the den watching Takumi walk down
the last few steps. Their eyes met. Asai looked Takumi up and down
and nodded. Just that nod of approval gave Takumi a rush of delight
and longing. Everything seemed to depend on pleasing Asai. Was
Takumi falling in love?
Over dinner, they began by talking about Riku but pretty soon
moved on to other things. Neither one mentioned the word ‘gay’ but
they didn’t need to. Half way through the meal Takumi was sure that
they would spend the night together; but an hour later, when they
were drinking green tea, looking out over the ocean, he knew that they
would not. The door had subtly closed.
He knew Asai was aware of every move he made and yet the more
Takumi tried to connect, the more disconnected he felt. It was as if
Asai was holding something back, as if he had a question that couldn’t
be put into words, a question that Takumi had no idea how to answer.
It wasn’t that he had failed some test: it was more as if he had missed
a cue somewhere and hadn’t found the test that he needed to take.
Six weeks and three visits later, they were still no more than
employer and employee.
They swam together, of course, sometimes with Riku, sometimes
just the two of them. In the water everything was simple. As dolphins
they rejoiced in each other’s company, Asai powerful and dominant,
Takumi reveling in his attention. But as soon as they came out of the
water, something was missing. Something was stopping them getting
together, and Takumi didn’t know what it was.
Asai had created a landing area that was screened from everything
else on the shore by a close board fence so that they could shift in and
out of human form without being seen. But inside, there were no
screens: they had no privacy from each other there. Like Adam or
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Eve, as soon as he was human Takumi would become aware of his
nakedness and feel ashamed. So he would try to surface first,
complete the change and grab his shorts while Asai was still shifting.
If he was delayed, chasing after Riku, he would nudge Riku out and
then stay in the water until Asai left for the house. To be fair, he was
careful to look away when Asai was shifting and never saw him naked
in human form, though he spent every night imagining it.
Asai never mentioned the gym that connected their bedrooms.
Sometimes at night Takumi would notice the locked door in his own
room and decide to ask if he could use it. But when morning came, he
said nothing. Kenny was fine about Takumi using his bench press and
Asai was giving him so much else, it seemed ungrateful to ask for that
too.
It wasn’t until Asai’s fourth visit that anything changed between
them. The previous week, Asai had been there but he had been
distracted by work. Now the deal, whatever it had been, was
profitably closed and he was in a light, playful mood.
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