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forgotten what I was capable of, and the amnesia seemed to be an epidemic. For a while since Lincoln’s departure, I’d filled my days with nothing but knocking heads around, jarring their memories back. For the hardheaded motherfuckers… Well, you can guess what happened to them.
    My father claimed that I was a loose cannon, running on emotions rather than logic, and maybe he was right. However, it was his own doing. So, fuck it. People who tried me had felt every bit of my wrath and then some. In situations where I would have shown restraint in the past, now, my attitude was fuck it. I didn’t make any excuses for my behavior, and I didn’t give a shit who I destroyed in the process; my conscience be damned.
    “Pops, I’m only doing what I must.” I started to say more, but Pops waved his hand, motioning me to be quiet and, like a good little soldier, I did.
    “I know why you’re doing it, Angelo, and it will stop today. You’ll also get your brother involved in our family business. Get him up to speed on everything. Its time.”
    I was already shaking my head. “Pops, I disagree. He and I aren’t in a good place.”
    “Oh, I’m fine,” Eddie replied and crossed his arms.
    “Okay, I’m not in the right place right now,” I told my father. “It’s not a good idea.”
    “Suck it up, son. It’s what I want and it will be.”
    Pops stood and placed his cigar on the side of his mouth. He mumbled, keeping the cigar tucked away, “You two need to figure out how to work together, or I’ll make you, and you don’t want that.”
    Pops moved from his chair and left the room. I sat there a moment, enjoying my cigar while my so-called brother sat across from me. He stared at me, but didn’t say a word.
    Finally having enough, I put out the cigar and stood. Eddie stood with me.
    “You’re really going to choose him over your flesh and blood?”
    I exhaled noisily and stared at him. It’s crazy; I’d asked him the same question months ago. His answer was evident then. Mine should be evident now. However, we had continued to have this conversation multiple times and most times, it didn’t end well. This time, I didn’t care to discuss this shit again. I moved to the door.
    “So you’ll turn your back on your flesh and blood too? Is that it?” Eddie asked.
    “You’re speaking about turning your back on someone. You’re the one that plotted to kill the very flesh and blood you’re looking at.”
    “I told you that I-”
    Cutting him off, I turned around and moved quickly to my brother. We stood chin to fucked up nose.
    I said to him, making it clear that I was losing my patience, “Cut the shit, Eddie. You may have our father fooled, but you don’t have me. I know you’re up to no good and best believe, bro , the moment I find out what it is, I’ll bury you myself; permission or not.”
    My brother looked up in my eyes, and I made sure he understood the threat that I posed, but also the promise.
    My brother did his best to keep his composure. A creepy ass smile appeared on his face as he confessed, “This beef between us is so childish and very unnecessary. I’m going to be the bigger person here and work extra hard to make sure you understand that I mean my family no harm. I’m not up to anything, Angel. Some way, somehow you’ve forgotten where my loyalty lies. I’ll admit my actions in the past could possibly make you question me. I’m telling you now, I only want to have what’s rightly owed to me.”
    “Oh yeah and what’s that?” I asked. “It looks to me that you want to have what’s been given to me, what I’ve earned.”
    “No, you can have that shit, but I want to be that right hand. I’m in this family too, and I be damned if I’m going to be silent and ignored when it comes to running it. So, brother, get used to the idea that I’m going to be here for a while. Shit will go better if you do.”
    “Then you will need to understand this: I will always have the final say