got yourself married.â
âWell,â said Ben weakly, âIâm not a tidy person. . . .â
âI should hope not. Filthy, I shouldnât wonder. Thatâs what makes people get marriedâbeing fed up with it. Donât let your mother provide you with dusters and vacuum cleaners, Mark, my boy. She cleaned me up, but she shouldnât try it on you. Squalor is part of a writerâs stock-in-trade.â
âIâm not a writer,â said Mark thickly.
âI know, my boy,â said his father equably. âI was referring to myself. Though stranger things have happened, of course. . . .â
âIâd rather die than be a writer,â went on Mark, oblivious of the pressure of his motherâs hand on his right sleeve. âBloodless, sadistic bastards. Always taking people apart, pretending to understandâGod, theyâre the last people to understand.â His great, dark-rimmed eyes watered with self-pity, and he looked with dull resentment at his father. âSelf-satisfied oafs,â he said. âThink themselves bloody little gods. Playing with people . . . never leaving people alone . . . Iâd rather die than be . . . than be a . . . writer.â
He subsided into a comatose silence, and looked at his untasted dessert. He had effectively doused the festive atmosphere. Oliver Fairleighâs eyes glinted dangerously as he looked in his direction, and there was an edge to his voice as he triedâin a parody of the tactful hostâs mannerâto fill in the surrounding silence.
âOf course he has a point,â he said generally, looking round the table. âWouldnât you agree, Woodstock? We are a pretty bloodless lot, I supposeâwatching people, storing it all away. Eh? All the little details that fall into place later, all the little mannerisms that give people away. It must seem a pretty inhuman sort of existence, to people outside the charmed circle.â He lowered his voice, and addressed Celia Woodstock alone: âHeâs had a little bit more than is good for him, you know. Not used to it.â And then, as conversation seemed to be slow in starting up around the rest of the table, he said: âShall we adjourn to the library? Surtees hasput out the coffee there. Iâve one or two things Iâd like to show your husband, my dearâheâll have to humor a bibliophileâs whims for a little while, Iâm afraid.â
They all got up, the Woodstocks saying all the right things, and the little party trooped off toward the library. With one exception. As they reached the door they noticed that Mark had sunk back into his place, and his head was beginning to fall forward onto his chest.
Bella went back and leaned over him.
âCome on, Mark. Dinnerâs over. Come and have some coffee. Thatâll buck you up.â
There were clotted mutterings from Mark that sounded like obscenities. Bella started to lift him.
âLeave him, Bella,â said her father, his voice dangerously close to a shout. âBest to let him come to on his own.â
âOh, no, Daddy. This is the best part of the dinner. Mark will have to be in on it.â And Bella and Terence between them stood Mark up, andâstaggering slightly, for Mark was not a small manâthey hoisted him across the hall and into the library. Once they had him there they let him sink into an easy chair by the door, where he promptly went to sleep, if he had ever wakened.
The study was large, luxurious, and dark, lined with cupboards and bookcases, whose contents were predominantly brown and nineteenth-century looking, though there were two shelves over the desk which contained a long line of books in gaudier dust jackets, no doubt the hostâs own collected works. The desk itself was an enormous, heavy Victorian affair, and was open.
âMy goodness!â said Oliver
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