“ You have made me realise it.” He squeezed her hand and sighed. “Although I fear you will no longer love me.”
“ It’s foolish, but when I met you, I longed for you to be the emperor so I could spend time with you. I hated the emperor.”
“ Do you still hate the emperor?” he said with a hopeful look.
Her frown melted away and she sighed. A smile curved her beautiful lips.
“ I’m an idiot, but I think I love him.”
Regis smiled, warmed by her confession and the fact that everything was out in the open now.
Almost everything.
“ Would you marry the emperor?”
“ I don’t think the emperor should talk about himself in the third person,” she said and then frowned again. “Your name is Regis though, yes?”
He nodded.
“ And the Count of Sagres bit?”
“ Count of Sagres is the name traditionally given to me as Emperor Varka. It was a risk to use it, but it is not well documented.”
Sophia stared at him. Regis was a count, and also the emperor. The man she had thought was the emperor wasn’t the emperor at all. She couldn’t believe this. It was almost as strange and fantastical as the thought that he couldn’t love. She had wanted Regis to be the emperor, and it had turned out that he was. Was this the deception her father had spoken of?
“ My father knows, doesn’t he?”
“ Does he?” Regis said with a frown.
“ Down at the cells he mentioned a deception and that someone had to explain something. It must be this.”
“ The cells.” Regis looked pensive, as though he was having difficulty remembering being there. “It is not clear. Perhaps he does. Everything between leaving you here and seeing you there is a blur.”
“ The bloodlust?” Sophia said and he nodded again. She stroked the back of his hand and then the start of the marks running up his arm. “You really are the emperor, aren’t you? You’re not going to suddenly announce that the Count of Aeris is the emperor?”
He laughed, although it sounded strained to her. “No. Van would make a terrible emperor. He is a better tactician than politician. He is the commander of our finest fleet.”
“ And the other one?”
“ Sirus?” he said and lowered his gaze to watch her hand. “He is my first attendant and bodyguard. Although I do not need one.”
She could believe that. Having seen Regis fight, she couldn’t imagine anyone besting him if he was in control of himself. Her fingers followed the marks up to his elbow.
“ Were you going to tell me?” she said with a frown, hoping his answer would be yes. She hoped that he had been intending to tell her sooner rather than later. She hoped that he would have told her before she had found out from her father.
“ Were you going to tell me?” he countered and her frown intensified.
“ Tell you what?” she said, unable to think of any secret she had withheld from him.
He lowered his hand to her stomach. Her eyes widened and her mouth fell open.
“ Varkans are very sensitive to female times of needing and pregnancies. A Varkan pregnancy develops quickly. A Varkan’s ability to see the future of their family develops faster than that.” He smiled and she was stunned to see the tenderness in it and the affection that filled his eyes as he stroked her stomach. “There will be two.”
“ How do you know?” She placed her hand over his, shocked by how sure he had sounded.
“ I have seen them. A boy and a girl. Playing under the Lyran sun with their mother.”
When he smiled at her, she wondered how he could have ever said that Varkans couldn’t love. There was so much affection and love in his expression and in his voice.
She hesitated and then smiled. “Do they have red eyes?”
He nodded.
“ I think I might be the first Varkan to ever say this.” He looked nervous for a moment and cleared his throat. “I love you.”