said he didn’t let many truly in.
“Why? I’m not like the other girls you date.”
“Exactly. Sweetheart you are fucking incredible, beautiful, sweet, funny. Your big brown eyes are branded in my mind. You have your shit together, and your priorities aren’t all fucked up. You don’t play games. To me babe, you are the total package.” His voice is a little gruff.
We stay quiet and I sit on the porch swing that looks out towards Penny’s wooden playhouse and the boy’s tree house that they built with Nick and my dad taking a deep breath. Sean would want me to try to reach for my happy, just how Emmi had said, I think to myself as I watch a bird land on the bird bath and look over at me instead of pecking into the cool water.
“So does that mean it’s a yes on Spaghetti and meatballs?” I ask and he laughs.
“Yeah, count me in.”
I give him the address and I tell him anytime after two would work. I put down my phone as I stared out to our cute little backyard. It wasn’t as big as our backyard in Berkeley had been. But it was well kept and peaceful. Thoughts of Sean drifted into my mind. Would have Sean liked Mike? I wasn’t sure, but I did. Wasn’t that what mattered? Wasn’t that what Sean would have wanted?
Sabrina
After brunch with the kids, I mentioned that Mike was coming over to talk about the potential of the mud run I had mentioned to them, and they were pretty unfazed. I went upstairs to get ready. Standing in my bedroom I look into the mirror, what the hell am I going to wear? I had said casual ; casual at home for me was yoga pants and a hooded pullover sweater on my days off. He would think I looked like a hot mess , I thought to myself. Only thing is I can’t get all dolled up because then the kids will know something is off. I end up deciding on faded boot cut jeans that make my ass look great and a black camisole that has a lace trim to it and threw on a soft pink button up cardigan that I left unbuttoned rolling up the sleeves to my elbows. I threw my hair up in a messy bun, put on some lip gloss and threw on a pair of brown Reef flip flops.
My phone rings and I answer it as I look at myself in the mirror in my bathroom.
“Hello.”
“Is he there yet? What are you wearing? Did you shave?” Emmi asks sounding as excited as I feel.
“Not yet, jeans and a cardi, yes, and how did you even know he was coming over?” I ask laughing.
“Mark mentioned it to Danny when they talked on the phone. Danny saw him at baseball practice.” Danny was Emmi & Dan’s middle son.
“Did Mark sound upset?” I ask.
“No. He thought it was weird, but said that he had seemed cool… then told Danny maybe you would start dating.”
“Well Mark’s not the one I am most worried about when it comes to their reaction of me dating again.” I sigh.
“Chris?” Emmi asks.
“Yeah.” After Sean’s accident Chris has become inseparable and attached to my hip. He was the serious one, an old soul in a child’s body.
“He will be okay. Can I do a surprise stop by the house to see if he really looks as good as he did in his pictures?” she asks and I laugh.
“No, but we might go for ice cream later. We could bump into one another.” I suggest jokingly, but knowing Emmi she would take me up on the offer.
“Can’t, my mom is stopping by tonight.” She says sounding disappointed.
“Awe darn,” I laugh.
“So have you told Nick about Mike?” she asks curiously and all I can do is roll my eyes. My mom, sister and even Emmi had been convinced that something would happen with Nick and I, and for some odd reason wouldn’t let it go. Nick and I are extremely close, but at the end of the day I was like the sister he never wanted and he was the other brother I had needed.
“No, he is still in Hong Kong on business. With the time difference, it’s been tough to catch up. He is coming into town next week though.”
“He is going to be so broken hearted,” Emmi said teasingly.
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