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Edie.  But your parents passed and all of sudden you started just existing .  It killed me that there was nothing I could do to help you, except love you and support you and be there for you, but sweetie, I’ve got to tell you that last night when you were dancing with Jackson, I saw some of my old Edie shining through – actually, I saw a lot of her shining through, and I fucking loved it.  I love you in any way you come, you know that, but I’d really love to have my best friend start living again.  You know it deep down, Edie, but you’re too scared to admit it.  Jackson is the type of guy you could fall in love with.  My best friend a couple of years ago would have jumped right in feet first, knowing that even if the ride turned to shit, she still enjoyed it with no regrets.  You miss that ride, sweetie, you’re going to have regrets.  It might turn bad, it might not, you’ll never know unless you try and from what I saw last night and from what you’ve told me, he’s got it just as bad for you.  The only difference is, he isn’t afraid to admit it.”
    “What about the other woman?  You can’t expect me to jump into something like that knowing what he’s like,”
    “I don’t know the situation with the other woman, and neither do you.  You can’t just disregard him based on something you only know a small amount about.  She could have been causing a drama for all you know.  But you won’t know unless you talk to him.”
    “What do you mean I’ve been different since my parents passed?”
    “Sweetie, exactly what I said.  Matt wasn’t even your type.  You lost your parents and then a month later hooked up with Matt.  You latched onto him in an attempt to stop your life spinning out of control.  You were grieving and wanted anything constant and stable to become a permanent fixture in your life.  You thought Matt was it, not because you liked him enough to maybe one day fall in love with him, but because he fit the profile you’d created in your head of someone who would last and offer you the security you were craving because you’d just lost your parents.”
    “Oh god.  You’re right.  I did do that.  That’s what I was doing all along.  When did you become so sage?  Have you been taking psychology classes or something since I’ve been gone?”  I hang my head and wonder where it all went wrong.  I don’t have to wonder for long though, because I already know the answer.  My parent’s tragic, early and untimely death.
    “It’s nothing to be ashamed of, sweetie, you did what came naturally to you.  You’d just lost you parents for fucks sake and you latched onto people who you thought wouldn’t leave you.”
    “Last night wasn’t the first time he’s kissed me,” I admit.
    Jules’ eyes widen.  “You failed to mention that .  Details,” she demands as only a best friend can.
    “I went to a local waterhole for a swim.  He turned up …,” I go on to tell her everything that happened with Jackson that day, word for word.
    “ Holy shit ,” she exclaims when I’m done, “told you he had it bad for you.  And the fact that you remember everything he said, the way he said it and how it made you feel, tells me I was right about the fact that you have feeling for him as well.  Edie, girl, you got bad.”  Then she breaks into song, “ You got it, you got it bad …”
    “You are crazy!  This coffee is shit.  Let’s get dressed and go down to the Coffee House for a real coffee,” I say.
    “Do they have chocolate croissants?” Jules asks hopefully.
    “Yep.”  At least, they did the other day.  I hope they’re a menu regular and not just a special, otherwise Jules might get her cranky pants on.
    “What are we waiting for?  Let’s go.”
     

     
    “You two look a bit worse for wear,” Ava chuckles as Jules and I walk into the coffee shop.
    “You’re a freak.  You were as drunk as us last night and here you are the next morning, not only