ran the community. Although my father was a very powerful man, I knew my mother was the stronger of the two. Even now that he was in his hospital bed, I didnât worry that mother would be fine without him, but I didnât know if my father would be fine without her.
When we got home, I just wanted to be alone, but Alex wouldnât let it go. She followed me around the room. âWhat are we going to do, Joshua?â
Just like a woman, always nagging. I mean, we hadnât been in the house two minutes and Alex was already whining. I didnât have all the answers, and I hated that. So I disappeared into the kitchen where I had left my financials sprawled across the table.
I plopped down in the vinyl chair and buried my head in my hands. Before I could lift my head I heard the sound of Alexâs gentle footsteps.
âI donât think we can do it. Thereâs just too much going on,â I said.
âToo much going on? Do what?â
âThe Kiano thing.â I threw my hands into the air.
âWhere are we going to come up with the money for the adoption, along with paying for my last quarter in school and all these bills Deââ I stopped before I went any further.
âNo, go ahead and finish. It wonât offend me. All these bills Delilah left you. Thatâs what you were going to say, right? And shouldnât she have had life insurance to cover some of her debt anyway?â
âBelieve it or not, I did use some of it for that, but most of it went toward her funeral and moving expenses. Plus it took me a minute to find a job here in New York City after Lilah and I moved.â
âI understand all of that.â
âI just donât know if we can swing this international thing anymore. Itâs very expensive.â I cringed at the thought that my own mother had added to this pressure.
âIt was always expensive,â Alex said.
âAnd you know my mother wonât help us with the adoption expenses anymore, not that she should have to ...â
âI know she doesnât have to, but she promised.â Alex blinked her eyes to hold back tears.
âWe promised too.â
âI know, and Iâm sorry.â
âSorry? You shouldâve been sorry when Delilah was using up all your money buying her authentic Gucci wardrobe.â Alexâs piercing stare made me uncomfortable. âLook, I apologize. I donât want to be mean. Itâs just that Kiano means a lot to me, and I made him a promise. We made him a promise. We canât go back on that now.â
I stood up and pulled her close to me. âAlex, youâre right, and I am sorry. I never wanted to bring you into this mess. I shouldâve paid all my debts off before we even got engaged. Itâs just that when I met you, my whole world changed, and I didnât want to wait for my finances to change too.â
âI know.â
âNo, you donât know. After Delilah, I wasnât sure I could love again ...â I was holding back so Alex wouldnât see how weak I really was.
âItâll be okay. Maybe I can do some overtime, take on more hours for a while or something.â Alex smiled and patted me on the shoulder. âWho knows?â
âNo way. Not my wife.â
âBut Joshua ...â
âThis discussion is over.â I left the room while I could still stand myself.
It hurt my heart to hear my wife talk like this when all I wanted was to be a good provider, a good husband, and father. And I really wanted Alex to stay home and be a good mother. It was just this whole money thing turned upside down. It was bad enough she had to even work part-time, but the thought of her having to work extra hours really made me upset. I was supposed to take care of everything so she could concentrate on carrying my baby. I needed God to help me get a grip on things. I needed a grip fast.
Chapter Eight
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