pattering noises of people going to bed, or the muted sounds of people already sleeping. The wind blew around the house, and the sound of rain on the tin roof got sharper, so that she thought the rain had turned to sleet. Sleet would blow down sharp through the dark air.
In her mind, she saw a high hill, with stone buildings on it among tall, leafy trees, and the great golden lion pacing there. He would know her, who she really was; with him, she would be who she really was. In her mind, she heard the overture to Swan Lake , all the orchestral instruments playing together, in harmony. She could almost smell the studio, a mixture of wax and sweat and the perfume Miss Maddinton wore.
Mina opened her eyes. The hands lay flat on the bright fabric with which the album was covered. She looked at them, at the square fingernails and the black skin. She turned them over to see the pinky skin of her palms. She felt as if these hands didnât belong to her and she didnât want them to. But could you feel that way about your own hands?
CHAPTER 6
M ina tackled Kat on the subject the next time they were alone together. That occurred when they walked to Miss LaValleâs for dance class. They had class twice a week, Tuesdays and Thursdays, from five to six. They always walked together, because their parents said they had to. It wasnât dangerous, not Crisfield, but it wasnât smart for girls to go walking around alone in the dark of evening. They both carried their slippers in plastic sacks, against the damp; they both had already changed into leotards, because the one changing room in the garage, with a plastic curtain hanging down over it, wasnât a very nice place to change clothes in.
âWhat do you mean, telling your mother Iâm a snob?â Mina demanded.
For a long time, Kat didnât say anything. Mina didnât look at her. She watched the sidewalk pass under her feet instead. They didnât walk close anymore, they were too old to walk around hand in hand the way they used to.
Finally Kat said, âThatâs the way you act.â
Mina didnât know, really, why sheâd asked. She didnât care, really, what Kat thought. She just wasnât going to let Kat get away with saying things like that, without Mina letting her know that she knew about it.
âIt is ,â Kat said. âAll youâll talk about is that boring music, allyou do isâand boasting about camp, or going off to babysit somewhereââ
âYou know I need the money, for tights, and slippers. It isnât as if my parents can afford those things, the way yoursââ
âThat too,â Kat interrupted. She stopped and turned to face Mina. Her face was twisted up with anger and didnât look at all pretty, Mina noticed. âI donât know you anymore. Youâre always criticizing me these days.â
âLike when?â
âLike right now, as if there was something wrong with my father earning good money. Oh, you donât say anything, you donât do it with words, you do it with your eyes, as if thereâs something wrong with the way I dress and talk and act, as ifâAnd all you do is write letters to those camp people. I bet they donât even write you back. Answer me that.â
Mina didnât answer.
âAnd trying to make me different too, make me read books and listen to your music. And theyâre boring and dumbâthe Narnia books. Itâs just pretend, fairy-tale stuff, with magic, and if I donât like them, you look at me as if Iâm stupid. Iâm not stupid. I donât know you anymore and itâs not my doing.â
Kat was breathing heavily. The white breaths floated away in the darkening air. The trees around them were bare branches, except for a big magnolia behind a fence. Mina didnât know why Kat was so worked up. Looking at the girl, Mina thought probably Kat was jealous. It was as if jealousy had