ago.â
I understood the agony in his statement.
My son Bobby died twenty-seven years ago.
I looked at the photograph in a leather folder on my desk. Bobby is running toward me in Chapultepec Park, his face alight with an exuberant grin. I remembered the laughter in his voiceââMom, hey, Mom!ââand the way he skidded into my arms, alive and eager and happy. It was his tenth birthday.
The emptiness is as great today as it was then, a void that nothing will ever fill, a grief that will never ease.
I had to believe that somewhere, on a far distant, sunnier shore, Bobby and now Richard awaited me. I had to believe that or sink into numb despair in an empty, meaningless world.
Dennis groaned.
I reached out, gently touched my sonâs picture.
Dennisâs voice shook. âAnd she thought, Rita thoughtââ He broke off; his face crumpled.
Rita thought he was being unfaithful yet again ona day that was forever seared into her soul.
âWere you?â My words dropped like ice pellets.
âNo.â He almost shouted it. âNo way. God, no.â
I straightened the stack of papers on the Rosen-Voss case. âWhere were you last night?â
He groaned again, pressed his palms against his temples. âNo place. Iâd told Eric to handle it. There was probably a late story coming in on that hotel explosion in Cairo, but nothing else. The front page was ready to put to bed. I just wantedâI couldnât sit there any longer. I got in my car. I drove around.â
âYou didnât stop anywhere, talk to anybody?â
âNo.â He rubbed his face wearily.
âYou didnât see Maggie anytime during the evening?â
His head jerked up. âNo. Absolutely not.â He stared straight at me.
Like the barely heard rattle of a snake on a hot, still day, a warning flickered in my mind. Such a straight-from-the-shoulder, honest, sincere gazeâ¦
Dennisâs yellow-gray eyes were opaque.
âWhere did you drive around?â
He flipped over his hands. âEverywhere. Nowhere.â
âDid you go over to Maggieâs apartment?â
âI might have gone that way. Itâs a small town, Henrie O.â
I let it drop, but the buzz continued in my mind. Maybe he didnât see Maggie. But Iâd bet he looked for her. So what price to put on his soulful protestations of innocence? âWhat time did you get home?â
âMidnight, I guess. About that.â
âWas Rita there?â
âYeah.â His voice was empty.
âWhat did she say? What happened?â
âThe bedroom door was locked. She wouldnât let me in. She screamed about Maggie. She wouldnât listen.â
âWhat did you try to tell her?â
âThat it was bullshit. Bullshit.â His voice rose. âI ended up standing there by that goddamned locked door, yelling that I hadnât fucked Maggie, but I sure as hell was going to give it a try.â
âAre you telling me you werenât having an affair with Maggie?â
âYou got it the first time.â His tone had an echo of its old flippancy.
âSo what gave Rita the idea? Why should she think so?â
Dennisâs putty-colored eyes slid away.
My sympathy curled a little around the edges.
He lifted his hands in elaborate bewilderment. âHell, I donât know. I had drinks with Maggie a couple of times. I donât know, maybe somebody told Rita about it.â
âWhy?â
He looked blank.
I spelled it out. âWhy did you have drinks with Maggie? Thatâs not part of the curriculum, Dennis.â
âYeah, well.â He grew sad. âMaggie was a gorgeous girl. You know? And sexy as hell. So, I gave it a try. Goddamn.â
Dennis was too jowly to be called handsome, but it wasnât hard to trace the good-looking young man he had been. His ebullience and hard-driving aggressiveness would make him sexually appealing tomost
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