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there any way you could stick close to Meera until it finishes running, just in case Hong Chan misses anything? You don't need to interact, just observe unless necessary."
Finn nods and gets to his feet. "Under the circumstances, I believe that would be wise. Do you wish me to begin my observations now?"
"Yeah, that's probably for the best. The testing shouldn't take too long, and Hong Chan's already rung ahead and checked that she's out of makeup. He's gonna head straight back to their changing room to wait for her, so the quicker you find her the better. I'll let you know when the update finishes too."
"Should I maintain my observations beyond the completion of the update?"
"Maybe. I'm not expecting any issues afterwards but if you think it's worth doing, then go ahead."
"Very well," he says. "I shall report back if there are any issues."
Finn leaves without another word, diligently and obediently following my orders, just as he's designed to. My boss on the other hand, will not be so easy to deal with. "It's a good job I'm such a genius," I say to myself with a smile, then select my bosses mobile number and hit call.
MEERA THORNE - 11:15
My head feels really weird all of a sudden.
I was really nervous after Hong Chan left, so I ran all the way to the wardrobe department and ended up there early. Jeanine didn't mind though, she said that she was looking forward to doing my makeup again. I felt better after that.
Jeanine's really nice. We talked about my nerves and how she used to be really nervous when she was my age, especially around boys, but she got over it after she learned to swim. She said that she'd always been scared of water but really wanted to be able to swim because there was a boy that she liked and he was really into swimming, so she spent months taking lessons so that she could impress him.
When she got the courage up to ask him on a date, he said no though. After she finished crying, she realised that she'd overcome her fear of water and even if it didn't work out how she wanted it to with the boy, it really wasn't all that bad. The worst had happened and the world didn't end, so she just decided to not be nervous about things any more.
I wish I could do that. Hong Chan and Fahrn and Maria all said that I was really brave and that I'm a survivor. The worst happened and my world did end, lots of times, but I'm still here. I kept going and I worked really hard and I got to speak to Fahrn just like I wanted. If I can do all that, I don't need to be nervous about a bunch of people watching me play cards.
I turn a corner and try to focus. My heart isn't racing, my breathing is fine, the show isn't really worrying me as much as it did yesterday. I'm still a little scared I guess, but I'm OK really. So why does my head feel like this? My stomach feels the same too. It's kinda fizzy.
No. I'm probably just being silly. Hong Chan told me that sometimes when I feel sick it's because I'm expecting something bad to happen and it makes me nervous without realising it. Fahrn agreed with him. She said it was because of everything that happened, that my mind keeps looking for ways out and chances to start over, even when I don't need to. She said that I shouldn't beat myself up over it because I can't help it and that it could take a long time to find a way to stop doing it.
Maybe that's what this is. Maybe part of me thinks everything is going to fall apart and it's trying to make me run away again and the other part of me sort of knows that and doesn't want to do it so now it feels worried and sick but it's trying to hide it from the
Finn nods and gets to his feet. "Under the circumstances, I believe that would be wise. Do you wish me to begin my observations now?"
"Yeah, that's probably for the best. The testing shouldn't take too long, and Hong Chan's already rung ahead and checked that she's out of makeup. He's gonna head straight back to their changing room to wait for her, so the quicker you find her the better. I'll let you know when the update finishes too."
"Should I maintain my observations beyond the completion of the update?"
"Maybe. I'm not expecting any issues afterwards but if you think it's worth doing, then go ahead."
"Very well," he says. "I shall report back if there are any issues."
Finn leaves without another word, diligently and obediently following my orders, just as he's designed to. My boss on the other hand, will not be so easy to deal with. "It's a good job I'm such a genius," I say to myself with a smile, then select my bosses mobile number and hit call.
MEERA THORNE - 11:15
My head feels really weird all of a sudden.
I was really nervous after Hong Chan left, so I ran all the way to the wardrobe department and ended up there early. Jeanine didn't mind though, she said that she was looking forward to doing my makeup again. I felt better after that.
Jeanine's really nice. We talked about my nerves and how she used to be really nervous when she was my age, especially around boys, but she got over it after she learned to swim. She said that she'd always been scared of water but really wanted to be able to swim because there was a boy that she liked and he was really into swimming, so she spent months taking lessons so that she could impress him.
When she got the courage up to ask him on a date, he said no though. After she finished crying, she realised that she'd overcome her fear of water and even if it didn't work out how she wanted it to with the boy, it really wasn't all that bad. The worst had happened and the world didn't end, so she just decided to not be nervous about things any more.
I wish I could do that. Hong Chan and Fahrn and Maria all said that I was really brave and that I'm a survivor. The worst happened and my world did end, lots of times, but I'm still here. I kept going and I worked really hard and I got to speak to Fahrn just like I wanted. If I can do all that, I don't need to be nervous about a bunch of people watching me play cards.
I turn a corner and try to focus. My heart isn't racing, my breathing is fine, the show isn't really worrying me as much as it did yesterday. I'm still a little scared I guess, but I'm OK really. So why does my head feel like this? My stomach feels the same too. It's kinda fizzy.
No. I'm probably just being silly. Hong Chan told me that sometimes when I feel sick it's because I'm expecting something bad to happen and it makes me nervous without realising it. Fahrn agreed with him. She said it was because of everything that happened, that my mind keeps looking for ways out and chances to start over, even when I don't need to. She said that I shouldn't beat myself up over it because I can't help it and that it could take a long time to find a way to stop doing it.
Maybe that's what this is. Maybe part of me thinks everything is going to fall apart and it's trying to make me run away again and the other part of me sort of knows that and doesn't want to do it so now it feels worried and sick but it's trying to hide it from the
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