the novel. “The author mentions that love is suffocating and that it confines you. If that were the case, then how do you explain all the countless people in love? I doubt that anyone would willingly put themselves in any situation that mocks a prison type environment.”
“Good point.”
Riding on my philosophical momentum, I continued, “He also says that love is something that stifles your growth. I for one think that’s bull.”
“How come?” he asked, a hint of a smile on his lips.
“Well, I’d like to think that if two people are in love they’d grow together. Not just as a unit, but as individuals. Ideally they’d encourage each other and help bring out the best in one another. That, my friend, is the opposite of stifling.”
“Is someone helping you…grow, now?”
I grunted, once again releasing word vomit before I could stop myself. “Um, no. Like I said, it is something I’d like to think love is. Hell if I know what it’s really about.”
His eyebrows furrowed slightly. “You’ve never been in love?”
I had to make a conscious effort not to grab for my chest. My heart was beating a mile a minute. Were Jacob and I really talking about falling in love? How the hell did this happen?
I shook my head and answered quietly. “No.”
“Then for someone who’s never experienced it, you seem very well versed.” He paused and added, “I guess I’m interested because I’ve never been in love either.”
Feeling my ability to speak weakening, I stared down at my book. Books had the power to give me strength and boy, did I need it now. I took a deep breath and gulped. “Well, based on everything I’ve ever heard and read about it, love continues to expand. It doesn’t have any limitations.”
He bit his lip and nodded his head in agreement. “I like that. I’d like to think that as well.”
I braved another glance in his direction and noticed a thoughtful smile on his face. He peered at me teasingly. “Why are you looking at me like that?” I breathed.
“No reason,” he replied with a chuckle.
“No, really. Why?”
“It’s just that that’s the most I’ve heard you talk since I sat down to join you guys. I was beginning to think you hated me or something.”
No, it’s quite the opposite, actually.
I shook my head. “It takes a lot for me to hate a person.”
“Well, that’s good to know.” He narrowed his eyes for a moment and reached out to pick a piece of lint out of my hair. As innocent as the act was I couldn’t help but feel as if all the blood in my body rushed to my stomach. I was silently hyperventilating. Maybe Anna was right. This was the reason why I was a relationship virgin.
“Hey…” Anna shot me a questioning look as she sat back down in the booth. “What’d I miss?”
Jacob shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly. “Oh, nothing. Just talking about love.”
“Love?” Anna repeated in surprise. “What about it?”
“Just that it’s something Estelle needs to experience.” He threw me a wink that caused me to redden even more.
Anna’s eyes widened before narrowing mischievously. “That she does, my friend. That she does.”
Jacob sat quietly for a moment before slamming his hand on the table, startling us. “Well, guess it’s time for me to go.”
“Leaving so soon?” Anna asked.
I looked away, knowing perfectly well that disappointment was probably etched on my face.
“Yeah, I have to practice.”
“Of course.” Anna laughed. She threw me a quick glance before remarking, “But you didn’t eat…not that any of us will probably eat in this place.”
“Yeah, after sitting here for a while and smelling all that health crap I realized I really do need a burger after all.” He laughed. He turned his head and patted me lightly on the shoulder. “Good seeing you.”
“Yeah…” My voice trailed off.
Jacob waved goodbye once more and disappeared out the door. I tried my best to be as inconspicuous as possible and shifted my
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