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at each other motionlessly.
    “This time yesterday I was in India,” Joshua smirked, “but this is a whole lot weirder.”
    “That explains the tan.”
    He smiled and blinked slowly.
    “Do you ever wonder where your life is going?”
    “All of the time,” Ezra’s stomach knotted at his sudden honesty.
    “Me too,” he said, “I travel so much, I never have time to stand still and question things but I’ve questioned more in these last twelve hours than ever before.”
    “That bang on the head must have knocked some sense into you.”
    Joshua laughed softly, his stomach rising and falling. Ezra’s eyes glanced down to Joshua’s crotch and to his surprise he saw that he still had a semi. In fact, it looked even harder than when they had been awkwardly pressed up against each other. Ezra felt his own cock spring forwards to fight against the tightness of his white Calvin Klein’s .
    “I should really go,” Joshua said but he didn’t move, “they’ll be wondering where I’ve gone.”
    “It’s not even nine yet,” Ezra said.
    “I should go,” he blinked heavily but he still didn’t move.
    “Why?”
    Joshua opened his eyes, a sudden clarity shining in his diamond blues through the dark, “Because I really want to kiss you.”
    “So go,” Ezra almost choked on his words, “or stay and kiss me.”
    In any other situation, Ezra would have taken that as his nudge to pounce on Joshua but he found himself wanting Joshua to make the first move.
    “I can’t.”
    “Why?” he really wanted him to kiss him.
    “Because it’s not -,” Joshua’s voice trailed off.
    His eyes closed tight, his hand darted behind Ezra’s head and he yanked him in so their mouths could crash together. Breathing out deeply through his nose, Joshua crammed his lips up against Ezra’s, hardly kissing him but not pulling apart.
    His eyes opened and a mixture of shock, fear and passion swirled through the crystal blue pigment. Deciding he needed to show him the way through, Ezra opened his mouth and closed his eyes. Slowly but surely, Joshua’s lips parted and their tongues met.
    Ezra had kissed a thousand guys and he had probably fucked more but nobody had ever made him feel so nervous. He tried to convince himself it was because Joshua seemed so unsure but he couldn’t shake off the feeling that he had been taken back to being an inexperienced teenager.
    As a teen, all of Ezra’s conquests had been women, which meant he was fully experienced by the time he found men. Thinking about being a teenager made him think about Jade and in turn, he thought about the fire. It wasn’t long before he was thinking about Lily and it was far too late to stop the guilt and pain surging through his body.
    This is what I was doing the night of the fire. I was fucking a guy the night she died.
    He surprised himself and pulled away from the kiss. He didn’t just pull away from the kiss, he pulled away from Joshua, putting the distance between them again.
    “What?” Joshua squinted, his lips red, “What’s up?”
    “Nothing,” Ezra rolled over onto his back and stared up at the posts of the bed, “I – I just – it doesn’t matter.”
    Joshua sat up and twisted his body to him. The way he swayed let Ezra know that he was as drunk as he should be from the amount he had drank and it was clearly starting to catch up with him.
    “Tell me,” Joshua demanded.
    Ezra thought about opening up for a moment but he internally laughed off the idea. He didn’t know Joshua, despite the bizarre connection he felt towards him. He never spoke about Lily to anybody and he wasn’t about to start talking about her to a random guy he had picked up in the bar and wasn’t able to fuck.
    So much for a distraction.
    “You asked me why I needed a distraction,” Ezra started, “well, the reason I did – I just remembered and it -,”
    “Oh,” Joshua laughed, dropping his head, “I thought I’d done something wrong.”
    Ezra joined him in