showâ¦â Ushara paused before she spoke the wrong name, âDagger to his.â
âYes, maâam.â
Jullien didnât speak as Ushara led him through a rear door, out of the offices, and down a back, narrow corridor with a walk that he was pretty sure had been outlawed in a few systems. Most of all, he tried to focus on anything other than how perfectly shaped her ass was. How long itâd been since he last had a female touch him.
Not that one had ever really touched him kindly. Even when he paid for their services.
Still, she was being nicer to him than anyone ever had, and it made him feel almost normal. Like he wasnât a total hybrid freak.
Stop it. He knew better than to have these thoughts. If he couldnât contract affection as a prince or tiziran, there was no way in hell he could expect anything except utter hatred and disdain as an Outcast. Especially from a female like her. She was honorable and high-ranking.
Beautiful and accomplished. Way out of his league.
All wanting did was make him hurt from the steady flow of unending disappointment. That was what his parents had taught him from the cradle. Donât have desires or goals, and nothing aches. Just survive like the animal you are.
Life was easier that way.
Focus, Julie.
Looking around, he refused to allow her to tempt him. Rather, he made himself learn about his new home. Heâd heard a lot of rumors about Tavali stations, but heâd never been in one before. They were too secretive and cautious to let in outsiders carelessly. And he was stunned that sheâd opened the doors to him.
After all, his reputation wasnât exactly one extolled for loyalty. He had basically sold out all but three members of his family.
Heâd even sold his own soul.
Trying not to think about that, he glanced around the station. It was a lot cleaner than heâd have thought. More modern.
For that, he was grateful.
Hell, he was grateful just to have some place relatively safe to sleep again. A locking door was a major bonus.
Ushara stopped at the end of the long steel alley and waved the card over a reader. âThese are really crappy quarters. Iâll see about getting you moved once the others clear out.â
âItâs fine. Really.â Better than trash like me deserves .
âYou say that, but you havenât seen it.â She turned the lights on.
Jullien swept his gaze around the small, spartan room, which took about a second and a half. âWell, itâs definitely not the palace I grew up in. But hey, itâs not the sewer I bled in last night, either. If the toilet and shower work, I swear Iâm in Eweyne .â
Skeptical, she handed him the card.
Jullien froze as his fingers accidentally brushed against hers. Itâd been so long since he had any physical contact with a female â¦
He could barely remember what sex with someone else felt like. And heâd never had it with someone who actually liked him. Only females out to use him or the ones heâd contracted for itâwhich was the only thing he really missed most about Andaria. The sociably acceptable paid companions that had been a sweet bonus for his otherwise shitty life.
As tahrs, heâd been allowed a standard two-year contract with any agency he wanted. And while heâd craved a permanent relationship with someone, not even their paid females would stay with him. No matter how hard he tried to negotiate a longer term with a companion or what he promised them, they always left as soon as their contracts expired.
As his cousins were so quick to point out, he was nothing more than a hideous, corpulent, mongrel dog in their world. Yes, heâd been the crowned prince and heir. But not even the coveted title of Andarion tahrs could buy him affection, or mask the fact that his blood was tainted by the weaker human genetic code of his father.
Great gods, Julie, your own mother canât love you, or
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