Charms. She enjoys guessing whether the sugary pellet melting on her tongue is a star, a clover, or a moon. âBut this is better for you,â Ceely would say, sounding like a TV commercial nobody believed.
On Motherâs Day this year, Ceely gave Esther a portable phone with colossal buttons that Esther at first mistook for a toy. Ceelyâs gifts are like that: lights activated by the clap of a hand; a call-for-help device Esther is supposed to wear around her neck; an ergonomic can opener; a large-print edition of Newsweek, which Esther barely has time to read, as it takes most of the week to get through the New Yorker. Esther has tried explaining that her glaucoma, which is under control, does not interfere with her reading. But Ceely knows best.
Esther would prefer a silk scarf, perfume, even a box of chocolates, or that old clichéâflowers. She imagines telling Ceely that though she is old, she hasnât lost her capacity for the sensual. But then Ceely would coo, as if Esther were a child who doesnât understand that what she really wants is the whole-wheat fig bar and not the chocolate cupcake with buttercream frosting.
Ceely pours the All-Bran into Estherâs favorite blue bowl, and as she slices banana on top she lectures her mother on the benefits of potassium.
Esther, who doesnât recall asking to be fedâsheâs already eatenâsays, âIâll bear that in mind. And by the way, nice haircut.â
âThanks,â Ceely says, sweeping her bangs back with a forearm.
Ceely has thick auburn hair, cut short, at odd angles. Estheronce had hair like that, hair she could do something with. Then one day, she couldnât. Now every time she looks in the mirror all she can see is a woman well past her prime, with hair that resembles a collapsed soufflé.
As she sets the bowl in front of Esther, Ceely reports that her in-laws have just sold their house for over three hundred thousand dollars. âThey paid eighteen for it in 1954.â
âI remember when gum was a nickel,â Esther says.
âYou remember everything,â Ceely snaps, then suddenly brightens as she seizes the opening her mother has unwittingly provided. âYou remember everything,â she repeats, âexcept where you left your purse, your glasses, and . . .â She pauses, picks up an empty bag and, skillfully as an origami master, begins pressing creases into it. âAnd your keys,â she says, as she creates another fold.
âOh boy,â Esther mutters. Then she considers the bowl Ceely set in front of her, never mind that sheâd been in the middle of a game. âFirst Iâm moving. Now itâs the keys.â
âYes, the keys,â Ceely says. âWe need to talk about that.â
âWhatâs there to talk about?â
âYou donât want to end up on a guardrail?â Ceelyâs voice rises. Her speech is halting, deliberate, like Estherâs when she speaks to Milo, who studies English for Newcomers at the community center. âDo you?â
Esther wishes she had a hearing aid to turn off, but despite the other infirmities of aging that plague herâglaucoma, arthritis, and slightly elevated blood pressureâher ears are in good working order. âPeople die when they give up the keys,â she says. She picks up her spoon, eyes the cereal, and sets the spoon down. âBut donât worry. Iâm not driving.â
âYou could kill someone, Ma. Remember the man who stepped on the accelerator instead of the brakes and drove intoa pedestrian mall?â Furiously, she creases the bag. âEight people dead.â
âIâm not driving,â Esther lies. She looks down and considers the cereal, which even in her favorite bowl resembles kibble.
âThen sell the car. Get rid of it.â
Ceely holds out her hand, as if she expects Esther to fork over the keys this very minute. Ceely is as sure of
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