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wanted since the
first day you slapped me.” A small laugh vibrated through his chest and bounced
me head. “I feel like I can’t have both.” He let out a loud sigh.
     
    Inside, my heart was
breaking. I have always known that there was something between Gray and me; I
could just never admit it to myself. When he finally told me how he felt I
pushed it away, thinking it was absurd. Now, he was all I wanted but the
thought of possibly losing him killed me.
     
    “We can try.” My voice came
out smaller than I intended and lacked the conviction I wanted him to hear.
     
    He was immediately pushing
himself up into a sitting position, bringing me along with him. He grabbed both
of my hands in his and looked me right in the eye. “Really? You would do that
for me?” I could see the excitement pulsing through him. This is what he was
hoping for, and who was I to take it away?
     
    “Of course. I’m not
promising it will work, but I am at least willing to try. I meant it when I
said I love you Gray. I want this just as much as you do.” I pulled one of my
hands from his and brushed my thumb across his bottom lip. “Just promise me
that I am enough.” I pushed my lips against his and quickly pulled back waiting
for his answer.
     
    “You will always be enough
for me. You’re more than enough Bennett.” His lips found mine and I could feel
him putting all of his emotion behind this kiss. He meant it. I could feel it
in my bones.
     
    We both lay back down on the
bed to settle in for sleep. “I love you Bennett.” He whispered as he kissed the
top of my head.
     
     “I love you too Gray.”

Nine
     
    The next few weeks flew by.
Gray and I spent every waking minute together. We would wake up and make
breakfast together, watch movies, go out to dinner, anything we could think of.
We never talked about his having to leave and I never brought it up. I had a
million questions that I needed answers to, but I would keep them at bay. There
was no need to let my own insecurities become his.
     
    We never went to another
party and Hannah never invited us. I had called to tell her about Gray and I
the day after the party. Gray had run home to get some clothes and I took that
opportunity to fill her in, on all the details. She seemed happy for me, but I almost
felt like she was a little bit jealous.
     
    Today was the day before
Gray had to leave and my emotions were running at an all time high. I was
trying my best to play happy everyday, but today it was eating away at me. Gray
was in the middle of making us breakfast while I was showering. I climbed out
of the shower and wrapped my towel tightly around my body. I woke up feeling a
little bit queasy but hoped it would go away after a hot shower. I wasn’t that
lucky. I slid my hand across the mirror removing the fog and noticed how pale I
looked.
     
    Maybe I was getting the flu
or something. Gray’s mom had said that there was something going around. I
quickly dressed and did my hair and makeup. We had decided that we would go to
the cemetery today with Gray’s mother. I hadn’t been there since my parent’s
funeral, and Gray had only made it back to his dad’s once since his funeral. It
seemed fitting that on his last day here, he would say good-bye.
     
    I ran the straightener
through my hair, just enough to flatten out the fly a ways and then brushed
some waterproof mascara through my lashes. I slipped my black sleeveless Chanel
dress on that Grays’ mother had bought me for my eighteenth birthday this past
summer. With one final look in the mirror, I headed out towards the delicious
smell coming from the kitchen.
     
    “What are you making? It
smells delicious.” I ran my hand down Gray’s back before giving a small pinch
to his backside.
     
    “Hey now, don’t be sexually
harassing the cook.” He smirked.
     
    I put both hands in the air.
“Never.” I winked.
     
    I sat down at the kitchen
table and watched Gray move gracefully around my kitchen. He was