sophomore year. In all that time we were together, he never
pressured me into doing anything I didn’t want to do. I think in
reality it has to do with the reason that I won’t go all the way
with Brady. I’m not saying that I wanted to stay a virgin all my
life but Lucas always respected my choices of waiting. The words
“Take me Lucas, all of me” keeps replaying in my head over and
over. The thing is, I really wanted him to, dream or no dream. At
that time it felt real so I think my subconscious was trying to
tell me that I really want to give myself to him. All of him. If
only it were that simple.
Chapter 8
The sound of the bell makes me jump. Chelsea
laughs and shakes her head. “Geez, why are you so jumpy? What were
you daydreaming about?”
“ What makes you think I
was daydreaming?” I ask.
“ Oh come on you had that
dreamy look on your face. Was it sexual? Did you have a fantasy
about getting it on with Brady? It’s about time you actually take
that step you know.” I smile, thankful she said Brady’s name
instead of my real fantasy boy.
“ Yeah, I know. I just want
it to be special. It will happen soon enough.” We get out of our
seats and step out into the hall, which is when I see him. Lucas is
leaning against the lockers, clearly waiting for me. He’s wearing
khaki shorts with a blue and white striped shirt, even though
there’s snow outside and it’s flipping cold. But he always wore
shorts in freezing weather, claiming he was warm blooded. I am warm
blooded too, but would still get cold sometimes.
“ Hey, I’m hoping you’re
not going to turn me away.” Chelsea looks from me to him, then back
at me again. “Okay, well I will see you later Abby.” I wave at her
and turn to Lucas.
“ Where’s Sarah? I wouldn’t
want her to get the wrong idea. She’s already acting like a crazy
bitch. And after tonight I suspect she will be taking crazy bitch
to a whole new level.” He gives me a confused look.
“ My mom found out she was
doing drugs and now she will be in some major trouble when she gets
home. I didn’t tell on her. But I should have. She needs to get her
shit together.” Lucas stops me midway and looks at me with a
neutral expression.
“ Look, I know she’s got
problems right now. But maybe you should take it easy on her a
little bit. I remember when you went through some of that. I was
there for you to lean on; maybe you should be there for her.” I
knew he was right but I couldn’t help the irritation building up
inside of me because he was defending her. “Why don’t you just be
there for her instead?” I stalk off, but don’t get far. He steps in
front of me and takes my arm lightly to get my
attention.
“ I’m sorry; I wasn’t
trying to piss you off. I just wanted you to see both sides is all.
We all went through the normal kid stuff, she just needs guidance.”
He put his arms down by his side and I couldn’t help but wish he
would have left it where it was. I had to get out of there, away
from him. When he was near, I would think all kinds of crazy
things.
“ I have to go. If Brady
comes by and sees us together, he’ll think something is going on. I
will talk to you later.” I start to walk off and he grabs my arm
again. The sensation that goes through my body is intense and I
gasp.
“ Can we hang out later,
after school? Please?” He asks with a raspy voice. I nod and smile
slightly then head for my next class in a daze. My skin tingles
where his fingers touched it. I bump into people as I’m walking,
not paying attention to what I’m doing. It isn’t until I hear my
sister yell my name that I realize I’ve circled the entire Science
hall like a zombie.
“ What the Hell is wrong
with you? Are you lost?” Sarah approaches me, humor laced in her
words. I barely glance at her and shake my head walking away. I
hear her say something else but I’ve no idea what, I just
pressured me into doing anything I didn’t want to do. I think in
reality it has to do with the reason that I won’t go all the way
with Brady. I’m not saying that I wanted to stay a virgin all my
life but Lucas always respected my choices of waiting. The words
“Take me Lucas, all of me” keeps replaying in my head over and
over. The thing is, I really wanted him to, dream or no dream. At
that time it felt real so I think my subconscious was trying to
tell me that I really want to give myself to him. All of him. If
only it were that simple.
Chapter 8
The sound of the bell makes me jump. Chelsea
laughs and shakes her head. “Geez, why are you so jumpy? What were
you daydreaming about?”
“ What makes you think I
was daydreaming?” I ask.
“ Oh come on you had that
dreamy look on your face. Was it sexual? Did you have a fantasy
about getting it on with Brady? It’s about time you actually take
that step you know.” I smile, thankful she said Brady’s name
instead of my real fantasy boy.
“ Yeah, I know. I just want
it to be special. It will happen soon enough.” We get out of our
seats and step out into the hall, which is when I see him. Lucas is
leaning against the lockers, clearly waiting for me. He’s wearing
khaki shorts with a blue and white striped shirt, even though
there’s snow outside and it’s flipping cold. But he always wore
shorts in freezing weather, claiming he was warm blooded. I am warm
blooded too, but would still get cold sometimes.
“ Hey, I’m hoping you’re
not going to turn me away.” Chelsea looks from me to him, then back
at me again. “Okay, well I will see you later Abby.” I wave at her
and turn to Lucas.
“ Where’s Sarah? I wouldn’t
want her to get the wrong idea. She’s already acting like a crazy
bitch. And after tonight I suspect she will be taking crazy bitch
to a whole new level.” He gives me a confused look.
“ My mom found out she was
doing drugs and now she will be in some major trouble when she gets
home. I didn’t tell on her. But I should have. She needs to get her
shit together.” Lucas stops me midway and looks at me with a
neutral expression.
“ Look, I know she’s got
problems right now. But maybe you should take it easy on her a
little bit. I remember when you went through some of that. I was
there for you to lean on; maybe you should be there for her.” I
knew he was right but I couldn’t help the irritation building up
inside of me because he was defending her. “Why don’t you just be
there for her instead?” I stalk off, but don’t get far. He steps in
front of me and takes my arm lightly to get my
attention.
“ I’m sorry; I wasn’t
trying to piss you off. I just wanted you to see both sides is all.
We all went through the normal kid stuff, she just needs guidance.”
He put his arms down by his side and I couldn’t help but wish he
would have left it where it was. I had to get out of there, away
from him. When he was near, I would think all kinds of crazy
things.
“ I have to go. If Brady
comes by and sees us together, he’ll think something is going on. I
will talk to you later.” I start to walk off and he grabs my arm
again. The sensation that goes through my body is intense and I
gasp.
“ Can we hang out later,
after school? Please?” He asks with a raspy voice. I nod and smile
slightly then head for my next class in a daze. My skin tingles
where his fingers touched it. I bump into people as I’m walking,
not paying attention to what I’m doing. It isn’t until I hear my
sister yell my name that I realize I’ve circled the entire Science
hall like a zombie.
“ What the Hell is wrong
with you? Are you lost?” Sarah approaches me, humor laced in her
words. I barely glance at her and shake my head walking away. I
hear her say something else but I’ve no idea what, I just
Similar Books
