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realize I cared this much about her until we came face to face, and I hoped we could come to some kind of understanding before the night was over.
    Her home was still beautiful, and I felt at peace when I sat down in her living room. Just like old times, she sat at the other end and gave me a foot massage while we talked. I didn’t want to end up with her head between my legs, so I kept my thighs tight so that she wouldn’t get any ideas. I was trying to clear my heart of some pain, and I really needed her to listen.
    “So, do you think he’s cheating on you?” Monica inquired while she worked her magic on my calves. Who knew someone with such soft hands could get a firm grip the way she does? I felt like putty in her hands, literally.
    “I never even thought about it. Out of nowhere he started acting all crazy like the mere sight of me was killing him. A few times he was back to his usual five minutes, but it was only in the morning. Then when it got to be every time we had sex I asked him what the deal was.”
    “And what did he say?” she asked, sounding concerned. Meanwhile, her massage had found its way halfway up my thighs, and her fingers were damn near dipping inside me.
    “He didn’t say anything. He just gave me a dirty look and walked out of the room.”
    “Hmm, I don’t know what to say about that. You know I would never do you that way.”
    “Is that so?” I asked just to be smart. I was trying not to go there, but she pushed me into it.
    “Basically . . . My love for you is unconditional. I just wish I could get the same in return.”
    “If it’s like that, why did you brush me off the way you did when you came to the courthouse that day?” That was the million-dollar question I’d wanted to know the answer to for months.
    “At that point I was just tired,” she responded with a sad look on her face. I waited for her to continue, but she just went on with her massage.
    “Okay, do you care to elaborate?”
    “Well, even though I knew you had a family already, I still hoped that it could just be you and me exclusively. I know James is wonderful in the bedroom, but I pay more attention to your needs than he does. You never have to worry when it comes to me and satisfaction.” She had a point there.
    “Monica, I know all that, and that’s why I love you. I just need you to understand that. What’s wrong?”
    Tears were threatening to fall from Monica’s pretty eyes, and I had no idea as to why.
    “You said you love me. Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for you to say that? I didn’t think it would ever happen.”
    “Monica, I love you. I just need you to understand that I have a husband and kids at home. I just can’t up and roll out like that. It’s not just my life at stake here.”
    “Jazz, I know that. All I’m asking is that we get to see each other more often. James wouldn’t know. He would think we’re just hanging out. I just need you to be around.”
    “Monica, I wish it was that easy.”
    I didn’t want to love her, but I did. Now I was all confused and I didn’t know what move to make next. Who thought that me, Jasmine Cinque, would ever love someone of the same sex?
    “It can be if you would just try it. The least you can do is think about it. That’s all I’m asking you to do.”
    “Look, I’ll think about it, but you have to promise to give me time to do just that. Give me room to make decisions, and don’t crowd me like you usually do. All that does is push me away.”
    “I can do that. Just keep loving me.”
    “I will.”
    She kissed me softly on the lips while her hands explored the rest of my body. I was dripping wet by the time her fingers made contact with my clit, and I wanted more. Usually she did me first, but tonight I felt like getting into trouble. I pulled her thong to the side, and motioned for her to lie back on the couch. She put one leg over the back of the couch, and the other on the floor as I made myself comfortable between her