trying to give me a message but I wasn't receiving it.
And Luke. If I could find the Luke I used to know somewhere in there, maybe we could help each other move forward and heal. But the only way to know for sure was to spend more time with him.
Later that evening, before Nick left for the day , I overheard him tell my mother that the house was fairly sound. There were some foundational issues that could be repaired and some rotten wood that would need to be replaced, but it wasn't anything they couldn't handle. He would be meeting with his partner that night over dinner, and they would come back in the morning with a plan to move forward.
My mother was relieved that the house was in such good shape. She had feared that the whole thing would have to be torn down, but now that she knew it could be repaired, it seemed as if we would be able to sell it and move on.
After dinner I was so emotionally drained that I went to bed. I was asleep before my head hit the pillow and didn't even hear Tomcat come out from under the bed and snuggle up next to me.
June 21, 2013
I am looking at the front door of the house again. The swing is there, but it hangs empty. Suddenly the door opens. When I step onto the back deck, he isn't there, but young Luke is on the dock fishing with his back to me.
"Hey, you want me to show you how to fish?" I walk over to him and when he turns around he's a grown man. "I've been waiting for you," he says softly.
I try to back away from him, looking around for Mark.
"There's no one else here, it's just me," he says.
I look back towards the deck but there is no one else. When I look for Luke again he's gone.
I woke up frustrated and pulled Mark's ring from my finger, throwing it back in the box. Why didn't he come anymore all of a sudden? And what the heck was Luke doing there? I laid back on my pillow staring at the ceiling in the dark, when I heard something in the hallway.
It sounded like the creak of the floorboards. I looked across the room to see Anne Marie and Eva were still asleep. Then I heard the noise again and Tomcat jumped up from his spot next to me and raced under the bed. The hair on the back of my neck was standing on end as I watched the doorway, waiting to see if someone was there.
When I didn't hear anything else for a few minutes, I crept out of the bed and walked quietly towards the door. I closed my eyes and swallowed hard before opening them and stepping out into the empty hallway. I blew out a breath I didn't know I'd been holding. As I inhaled, I thought I smelled the lingering scent of cigarettes, but dismissed it and tried to calm my racing heart as I climbed back into my bed.
~~~~
When I walked into the kitchen later that morning, Eva and Nick were sitting at the breakfast table with their heads a little too close together. Eva giggled about something and touched Nick on the arm. I cleared my throat as I opened the refrigerator, and Eva looked up and me and blushed.
"Morning you two," I sang , as I grabbed a glass and poured some orange juice.
"Good morning, Miss Caroline," said Nick, and Eva smiled at me.
The doorbell rang just then, so I put down my glass and went to answer it. Luke was standing there, smelling freshly showered and looking like a god. My knees felt weak just being near him.
The universe hates me.
"Luke," I said, a little surprised. I looked from his green eyes to his mouth and let my eyes slowly take in his perfectly formed body. His broad shoulders stretched the material of his white Henley taught so I could see how well defined his upper body was. He hadn't changed much in the last couple years. If anything, he was better looking than I remembered. I swallowed hard and then noticed an almost imperceptible smile had crept over his lips.
" See something you like, Savannah?" He asked, leaning against the door frame with one shoulder and crossing his arms. His eyes travelled the length of my body, leaving a glorious tingling in their wake.
He
And Luke. If I could find the Luke I used to know somewhere in there, maybe we could help each other move forward and heal. But the only way to know for sure was to spend more time with him.
Later that evening, before Nick left for the day , I overheard him tell my mother that the house was fairly sound. There were some foundational issues that could be repaired and some rotten wood that would need to be replaced, but it wasn't anything they couldn't handle. He would be meeting with his partner that night over dinner, and they would come back in the morning with a plan to move forward.
My mother was relieved that the house was in such good shape. She had feared that the whole thing would have to be torn down, but now that she knew it could be repaired, it seemed as if we would be able to sell it and move on.
After dinner I was so emotionally drained that I went to bed. I was asleep before my head hit the pillow and didn't even hear Tomcat come out from under the bed and snuggle up next to me.
June 21, 2013
I am looking at the front door of the house again. The swing is there, but it hangs empty. Suddenly the door opens. When I step onto the back deck, he isn't there, but young Luke is on the dock fishing with his back to me.
"Hey, you want me to show you how to fish?" I walk over to him and when he turns around he's a grown man. "I've been waiting for you," he says softly.
I try to back away from him, looking around for Mark.
"There's no one else here, it's just me," he says.
I look back towards the deck but there is no one else. When I look for Luke again he's gone.
I woke up frustrated and pulled Mark's ring from my finger, throwing it back in the box. Why didn't he come anymore all of a sudden? And what the heck was Luke doing there? I laid back on my pillow staring at the ceiling in the dark, when I heard something in the hallway.
It sounded like the creak of the floorboards. I looked across the room to see Anne Marie and Eva were still asleep. Then I heard the noise again and Tomcat jumped up from his spot next to me and raced under the bed. The hair on the back of my neck was standing on end as I watched the doorway, waiting to see if someone was there.
When I didn't hear anything else for a few minutes, I crept out of the bed and walked quietly towards the door. I closed my eyes and swallowed hard before opening them and stepping out into the empty hallway. I blew out a breath I didn't know I'd been holding. As I inhaled, I thought I smelled the lingering scent of cigarettes, but dismissed it and tried to calm my racing heart as I climbed back into my bed.
~~~~
When I walked into the kitchen later that morning, Eva and Nick were sitting at the breakfast table with their heads a little too close together. Eva giggled about something and touched Nick on the arm. I cleared my throat as I opened the refrigerator, and Eva looked up and me and blushed.
"Morning you two," I sang , as I grabbed a glass and poured some orange juice.
"Good morning, Miss Caroline," said Nick, and Eva smiled at me.
The doorbell rang just then, so I put down my glass and went to answer it. Luke was standing there, smelling freshly showered and looking like a god. My knees felt weak just being near him.
The universe hates me.
"Luke," I said, a little surprised. I looked from his green eyes to his mouth and let my eyes slowly take in his perfectly formed body. His broad shoulders stretched the material of his white Henley taught so I could see how well defined his upper body was. He hadn't changed much in the last couple years. If anything, he was better looking than I remembered. I swallowed hard and then noticed an almost imperceptible smile had crept over his lips.
" See something you like, Savannah?" He asked, leaning against the door frame with one shoulder and crossing his arms. His eyes travelled the length of my body, leaving a glorious tingling in their wake.
He
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